Underground – short story

I don’t remember the last time i touched air, or sniffed the fumes of petrol on a busy morning full of traffic. Though it’s not possible to touch air is it? But you do understand the feeling of it. I used to enjoy the breeze every time i would leave our shopping centre, it would instantly dry my sweaty palms and cool my wet neck.
I would sweat a lot whilst shopping, especially indoors. The rush of wanting to go from shop to shop trying to get through people, though why rush? It was as if sometimes the shop would disappear but i had this urgency to just get out of the way of people because my fucking God, some humans did not look where they were going. I often felt like i was the only one that would look around or left and right to see if my path was safe, or to spot the arseholes who weren’t actually looking. Sometimes if i bumped into the ignorant of the blind, they would look to me as if it was my fault.
I felt like an alien whilst people wandered and stared solely in a straight line, not giving a shit where they walked because they wanted to walk where ever they felt like it.
The satisfaction of entering a shop, but then to do it all again whilst in that shop. Avoiding people with prams or large baskets and trolleys. I always moved out of the way when someone wanted to get past or decided to shuffle next to me and look on the same shelf. That pissed me off, i had to wait until they were done so i could continue with that section. Selfish shoppers, and what’s with the parents that just allow children to wander. I am not apologizing if knock over your kid.  I don’t miss the stress of being amongst other humans whilst shopping. – In fact i am with them twenty four hours a day, and have been for the past fourteen years. We haven’t seen an ounce of daylight and i haven’t had a strong lung in take of air for a long time, i’ve forgotten what most things look like or taste like.
Our air though is filtered through and reaches us underground, Lord knows what would happen if something was to go wrong. The ‘Army’ as we call them i suppose are trained enough to take on that kind of situation if it was to happen, though too many have already been eaten and killed. The overly brave, who think whatever is up on the surface is weak and no match for the mighty army. How wrong were they? Once a month, a team does venture out for a whole week to seek food and supplies, even try and find more traces of humans. Not many return, and each time we are thankful for the loss of life so we can continue living.
My cabin isn’t too bad, i made some fake plants out of clay the other day with another bunch of women. Most of them are married and the men go off doing labour work, us females don’t have much to do except look after the children and educate, cook, nurse or like me wander and observe.
Never in my life would i imagine that whats left of some of the population is here living underground. I can’t speak for the rest of the United Kingdom or the cities outside of mine, in fact the rest of the world.
We haven’t had human contact outside for the ten years, the four years this all happened was fine. I guess you could say hopeful? I mean it’s a long time isn’t to be underground and not speak to humans above.  – I can’t really remember what made us all live underground. All i know is that if we go up, we die.
I think i was thirteen years old when this happened, i am now twenty seven. I don’t know what year is it, or date. We have our own calender’s and i gathered all the months and dates are incorrect but it helps us to live everyday, so we can celebrate birthdays or even Christmas.

It’s my birthday soon, i want to leave the underground and live in the real world. I am going to make my escape the day after my birthday. I need to know the truth, i need to see daylight.

 

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Charlie – Short story

 

I sat longer than usual on the bench, i knew my train was about to arrive but i just didn’t quite feel like catching it. I knew that waiting wouldn’t make him sit next to me but i wanted to sit here for a while longer hoping that he did. I wanted to feel hopeful, i needed atleast that. I am not sure if i fell in love with him, though i did care deeply and really did see him as a best friend.
But how can you love or be friends with someone you bump into everyday, waiting to catch the train home from work. How can you feel something by sitting for two hours a day talking with them and building a connection?
The last week i’ve say here and he hasn’t shown up, i knew this day would come. He’s moved on with his life and quite right. We never exchanged numbers or even added eachother on social media, which i can’t seem to fatham. Why did we not ever do that? Is that not what people do now, exchange user names and connect through a world of meme’s and cat videos.
I think maybe it would of all gone a different way, infact hundreds of ways. We could of spoken more, met up. Even exchange messages to confirm that we would both be at the station waiting for our seperate trains. But then i do realise if we had that, i don’t think it wouls be as magical.
For two hours a day, 5 days week after a long day at work i would sit and talk with a stranger. His name was Charlie, and for 6 months we built this friendship. At first it was me plonking my arse down on a bench after a really horrible day at work. I was at my all time lowest in life. I had a rubbish job, no boyfriend and not many friends. I pretty much spent my life either at work or in my home cuddling my cat. If i did go out, it was because i needed to get food and things to live or the odd friend would randomly want to meet for lunch. Which i can say was not that often, i had no social circle nor remember the last time i went out with friends for a girls day or even night drinking cocktails.
My life was shit and that day i wanted to run onto the train tracks and just end it all. But meeting Charlie, gave me hope and the fact i couldn’t leave my poor kitty alone.
After that day bumping into him became this weird coincidence and before we knew it, us sitting on the same bench waiting for our train became a regular thing. We would spend a few hours talking, purposely missing our travel home.
This handsome guy with dark hair and a quirky sense of dress style, made me feel like i existed in this world once again. He made me laugh, talked me out of my darkest thoughts and most of all he listened.
Six months is a long time isn’t it? Especially when we never exchanged numbers, the more i think about it the more i wonder if he really did exist.
If i had his number, maybe i would know why for some strange reason, Charlie left without trace…

Crochet hook review – Sunday chit chat

I wanted to blog something crochet related as I haven’t really gone into much detail lately about my current projects, I currently have 6 projects that are all for customers and a few on the side for me plus one hundred for my stall – I am actually meeting up with my mum in the week to make a huge list of things I want to sell and she’s going to help me make some things to take the load off!

 

Anyways, so I think when it comes to our craft and hobbies its important to have good supplies, ones that work for us and really make our work not only enjoyable but smooth sailing. I think that’s really important with crochet and knitting, though I aren’t a pro in either I don’t know how to knit so I can’t really give much of an input on that part. I will say though I have had a few experiences with hooks and I found it really important once I got better at crocheting to be comfortable and happy whilst making things.
Also, I suffer bad with my wrists sometimes probably due to all the warehouse jobs I have worked in so my hands etc become tired easily and I feel the strain more – Which is why I wanted to go through my hooks and talk about what works for me and doesn’t and how I rate each one.

This is no way shape or form meant to force to buy the hooks I love, as everyone is different and has a preference when it comes to hooks and things but I have a speciality hook with I think will interest some folk. So shall we begin?

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Aluminium hooks are probably the first set of hooks anyone will buy as a beginner. Why? Because they are cheap and a great way to learn how to crochet. I mean you must be crazy if you fork out lots of money when first learning something new!
These are a brand called Fusion, set of 12 and I paid £4.99 for them! I believe the name fusion is just private labelled as you can get these metal hooks from pretty much anywhere online for super cheap. Ebay have hundreds!
Okay, so whats good about these is that they are cheap, and they really do help with learning the basics of crocheting. It gives you great insight on how to get comfortable holding a hook, as we all have our own way. But for long term use, for me personally they don’t work. ESPECIALLY the smaller sizes, I mean my most used size hooks are 2, 2.5, 3.5, 4, 6 and when I am making toys I used 2, 2.5 a lot. These were so not comfortable to use but when I started out I really didn’t get that? I just assumed it comes with the craft, especially when it comes to delicate yarns and cottons these things would snag and make all sorts of mess to my fibers.
However I wont throw them away because the larger hooks are ‘okay’ to work with. I just can’t crochet with them for long, especially since a year has passed and the skill has improved massively. Great for beginners, not so much good if you do suffer with joint inssues in the wrists, or arthritis because they are slippy and uncomfortable to hold, especially after a long period of time.

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When I started to get better a crocheting and also began to experience pain in my wrists, people would tell me about hooks with rubber handles or the more elite and expensive ones, Clover etc. Because my budget wasn’t quite there I noticed that the brand Fusion who made those really uncomfortable metal hooks also did some rubber handle style ones. They didn’t even break the bank, seriously! I got a set of 9 for £7.99 WOW right!?
To this day, they are the best books I have ever used and of course a little stronger. I mean my 2mm hook on the old set fucking bent when I used it! These were amazing and I noticed straight away an improvement in my crocheting, my hand pain was less and less and I was able to crochet faster, neater and for longer periods of time. I was super happy!
These again are perfect for those that are starting out and don’t want to break the bank AND PRO’S – Honestly, I will say recently I got a clover hook and sometimes I still switch back to this because of how comfortable I am when I crochet. Basically, in my pot of hooks if I need a hook this is the one I reach for without thinking! I will never stop using these hooks and I will never forget them because they helped my improve so much.
So if you are looking for hooks that save you money and  have an ergonomic handle this will be your life saver!

 

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This is just a quick tough on bigger crochet hooks and the one small one I have.  I mean its an absolute rare occasion that I use such big hooks! I don’t think I’ve ever made anything chunky or bleugh because when I have, regardless like aka t shirt yarn my wrist hurts and I find it so hard to work with hugely bulky yarn. May because I aren’t used to it like some crocheter and knitters so I probably need to spend more time with fat yarn. So I got some hooks, these are not a set and got each one alone. I was using these plastic shitty pony ones that I did not like and I will touch on them at some point in this post.
These Knit pro hooks cost around £2.90 each, that’s just an estimate. I actually got them from Ebay, and if your precise and don’t rush a buying on Ebay you will find legitimate sellers as I know a lot of fake hooks/brands get sold but I do have a few sellers I buy from and they are really good. Especially for price. As I don’t use these hooks that often, I just wanted to say findind a hook with a rubber hand and metal head will probably work better for anyone like me who finds it difficult or has wrist pain. Its a lot more comfortable to hold and the yarn will just slide easily on these hooks. AVOID the shitty ass cheap pony ones, they are vile…DSC_0047

Oh look shitty ass plastic ones. Okay, they don’t function well with yarn and I can’t seem to get a good grip on these at all. They hurt my hand it in all kinds of ways from wrist pain, to friction on my palm because I have to hold them in a weird way to feel comfortable. They make me feel like I have to work ten times harder when crocheting rather than just effortlessly moving that hook, I mean you guys might have good experiences with these but I don’t. The only good thing about them is they are cheap, so yeah.

 

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My babies! Clover hooks! YUP – Expensive. But I only bought the sizes I truly use the most because I want to feel comfortable as I am a lot better at crocheting. This past year my bones and joints just aren’t the same and I even had to wear a bandage for a week because my wrist was fucked up. I still have to wear it when I feel like I need support whilst crocheting.
So the top image is Clover soft touch, and these are a God send. I didn’t know what to expect when I had these, as I know everyone goes on about these and I’ve been wanting them for such a long time and the past few months I’ve been lucky to upgrade a little on my hooks. The first one I bought was a 4mm I have two of those because I thought id lost the other LOL – I got it and fuck, it was the lightest thing I’ve ever held. Which what makes the hooks so great. They are so light in your hands that you don’t even realise you are crocheting, so I could crochet even faster and longer without hurting or straining. I wasn’t sure if was going to like them because of the handle its flat and not bulky and round like some other hooks, so I had to adjust the way I held my hook and it took me a day to get used to it. But now I love them, the hook itself is so well made you can tell by the shape and I have not experiences any yarn catching or snagging especially the smaller hook when I used cotton for toys. It’s so smooth I can’t explain it. If you want to not ache as much with crocheting then these are the next upgrade, they are pricey over all. I mean £3.69 approx  for one hook hence why I got them over time, and I aren’t too bothered about getting every single size as I have other hooks etc I am ok working with.
Then the go onto the picture below – These are Clover Amour and work out around £5.99 for one hook, so even more pricier. I have a 6.5mm in this as I started a blanket with chunky yarn and I didn’t really have a great hook other than my fusion rubber handles and I was experiencing snagging and just bleugh. FUCK £5.99 is worth every penny. The handle looks the same doesn’t it as some others? But its not, the rubber is softer than talc on my ass. The hook itself is plastic but I know they have Amour ones made from Aluminum – For plastic it doesn’t look like it, so it must be special because the hook is so smooth and well crafted. The handle and everything I could just tell the difference as I worked with my chunky yarn. I enjoyed crocheting with it, I just kept going and going because I had no issue.
These hooks are worth the buck in my opinion, you guys might not like them but that’s okay. I aren’t saying buy buy buy – Add them to a wish list for your birthday or Christmas, and if you get the chance to treat yourself once in while invest in one at a time. Don’t get a whole set because you need to see if these hooks will work for you!
Now I am saving the best til last 🙂

 

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OKAY! This is a 6mm Prym ERGONOMIC crochet hook. I paid £4.29 so yes again price!
If you want to invest when your ready and want a really decent ergonomic hook then this is it. BUT I want to give you the bad news – These start from 6mm to 15mm, which pissed me off though I totally get why. The bigger the yarn the bigger the hook, and it can become quite tiresome and hardwork as I mentioned with another hook, so you have more strain on your wrists and this isn’t always a nice thing if you have arthritis.
We want to craft and be comfortable, not do it for half an hour and be like damn I need a cocktail to forget the pain.
I am not lying when I say DO Get these hooks, DO try them. If they made these hooks in smaller sizes, I would switch out my whole collection for these. SERIOUSLY, that’s how good they are.
I mean, Prym hook me up if you do smaller sizes!
The only thing I had to get used to is the handle is longer, which is actually a good thing this makes it nice and easy for you to hold the hook nice and light without gripping it for your life. Which means it’s comfortable.
The metal hooks, and the nasty ass plastic things I had to hold really tight because I could not get a good trip or feel comfortable.
These glide and your wrist moves smoothly when your tackling those stitches! Add this to your wishlist.

 

Hooks I aren’t fond of.

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So I won’t fully say piss off to crochet hooks with fancy handles, or bamboo hooks as well the polymer clay hook was free with a magazine. It snagged my yarn, it wasn’t made very well on the hook you can feel something rough and the handle is hard and uncomfortable. I do however like the roundness of the handle, it made it easy to manoeuvre in my fingers.
As for the bamboo hooks, they cost like £1.99 and I think the one with the interchangeable end cost around £2.99 or £3.99 – They suck! They feel so light and I was so scared of snapping them, not only that the hook itself didn’t seem like the size it said. I compared them to another hook size, and it just seemed really small!
Not only that they caught onto my yarn and snagged, I struggled to finish a stich and couldn’t really get a good rhythm or flow with my crocheting. I got pissed off and threw them to one side.
HOWEVER – I am very open to trying more bamboo hooks, and more fancy hooks with cute polymer clay handles. These ones that I have are just an actually no go!

 

Thanks for reading!

So yeah! That’s my thoughts on my hooks, again these views are my own and I am in no way shape for form encouraging this to be your opinion. I think it’s important in crocheting and in any craft that you find the tools your most happy working with. It’s about experimenting and testing out, which is why I don’t and wont ever buy full sets of the expensive ones so that’s also important for you to remember! No pressure in upgrading, it took me a year to do so and if it wasn’t for my mum who has been helping me recently by treating me every now and again I probably will be still using those fucking metal things. They are really sharp at the bottom, so I need to add that if you have kids just watch them with those, they would make a good weapon.

 

I hope you are all having a good weekend!

 

I can fly – poem 

Let’s pretend that I can fly,

And see the world from way up high,

With my wings the things I see,

Is a world that pretends to be.

-Rebecca Pursell 

Bye Bye August – Random chit chat

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Well, as far as crocheting is concerned i am working away at orders and don’t have many finished NEW and exciting WIPs – Except the hat. I have however managed to get back into my bullet journal and now my life is becoming before busier than usual i feel like i need to set routine for my crocheting, especially now i need things to get done.

I aren’t the greatest artist, but i actually took some time with what i’ve put into this month and started a new bullet journal book because i fucked up the last one. And by that i mean i got pissed off with how scruffy it was and threw it out. I have this OCD thing where if a notepad or in this case my bullet journal has too much scruff in it or doesn’t look nice inside i have to have brand new. Which i think related to my hoarding issues because i have ALOT of notebooks that all has the same stuff in it but it’s all been re-written because a few pages in the old one was bit messy.

I have around 6 weeks for my first stall and i have jack shit made, do you also want to know something else about me? Okay, so i have tried all my life to plan etc and i even am trying now but i just cannot plan ahead – I am a last minute person, i always will be. I can’t even plan what i am going to do at the weekend, even though i know i will be doing the same thing like relaxing and gaming but i want to go our Monkey forest but i can’t tell you if i will or what time.

When we wen to Liverpool, i got an open return ticket which means you can catch anytime to and from – But i had planned in my head the exact time i want to arrive so i got the train times and guess what? I got the next one because i was running late.
I think when it comes to the morning and just waking up, it takes me a long time to function. We are talking an hour before i start to move, i tend to relax with a cup of tea check emails, messages watch pointless conspiracy theory videos and then i will have a second cup of tea. I thought this would change since i quit smoking, because that would be in the routine but it hasn’t – So i am fucking lazy basically.
When it comes to over all planning and what time, or what time to meet people its a kind of ‘hey mum lets meet at noonish’ and remember the ISH part, because that then gives me my excuse for if i am running late. ‘Why you so late, you said noon?’ NO mate i said noonish.

And we have swayed way off track, so what were are learning right now is that i have some mental issues – I hoard, i can’t plan, I have weird OCD things.

If i can’t fascinate you with my life and babbling’s how will i ever get people to read my book when and if it surfaces – Again this is where the i can’t plan thing comes into play.
How the foook, am i going to keep track of my bullet journal LOL

 

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So the picture above is my habit trackers for September, Writing being the main one which Crochet should be bigger but the reason i made the writing one bigger is because of the space next to each date. – So the purpose of the habit tracker is to track each day something you do etc, so i will highlight on the day i do these things and with the writing one next to the day i am just going to jot down how many words i do.
I am aiming for the min of 1,000 because sometimes when i write not alot comes out and i don’t want to force too much and then sometimes lots and lots comes out. Hopefully with this i can gauge the average word count and what days i do write for next month and then i will hopefully set a writing routine.

 

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This is actually not a monthly collection/list but this is part of the collections before you start your actually diary/month – I am in the works to do a video, i really fucking promise i’ll do it. I just can’t PLAN when. Have you noticed when i’ve planned to do something and show you guys on my blog i don’t do it – TOLD YOU, planning problems.
I just thought i would create a two page spread of recipes i want to try, one side for me and my boyfriend and the second side solely for me as i am more open minded to trying to new things. OR i could use it for healthy recipes because i am getting more fatter. I need someone to throw salad at me.

I am a free bird, i do what i want when i want.

 

And that is about it, i felt like i need to blog because i was in a chatty mood! Hopefully next week i will post some pictures of what i am working on order wise. I just don’t want to right now because i like to get so far in an order before showing a preview as it keeps that kind of element of surprise! Plus two are blankets and are looooooooooooooooooong.

 

OH OH OH – British bake off has started, i really enjoyed it even though its been taken over by shitty Channel 4 – ADVERTS OMG i can’t cope, sooo i might have to watch it on catch up because at least with BBC one you didn’t have to watch people badly mime a fucking script for tooth paste.

Also started watching the TV series The Vikings, obsessed! Just finished season 1, i believe season 5 starts in a few months so i need to go out and get the rest.

 

OH OH, i haven’t done much in the way of practising my calligraphy or handwriting but it’s my birthday in October and made a list of a few things to get me so i can actually have some kind of guidance/exercise books which i saw on amazon.

 

Book reviews LOLOLOL ok i haven’t finished my current read, i got busy. And now it’s been a few weeks i cant be arsed with that story though it will bug me if i don’t finish it. 

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! I hope everyone is fine and dandy 😀

Crochet puff stitch hat & catch up

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Well well well, look who it is! It’s me! HA. I’ve really enjoyed my feed recently, even though i haven’t posted anything. – I had nothing to really say? I’ve been so busy, with now a huge random bulk of orders, and i also had a bad wrist which set me back but i’ve also been meeting up with my mum much more and instead of sitting at home being bored we just randomly hit up some charity shops and see if we can catch a bargain.

Plus i think i have over whelmed myself. So when you’re a crafter, its like you have to plan ahead right? I booked two craft fairs, one for a woman who runs them all year around mine is in October and then i am doing a Christmas one for my local fire station. I knew this right, i had this under control whilst orders had relaxed i thought right lets make shit loads of stuff and also get more baby things on the website. Okay then i started to write more and read more, which then all of a sudden LIFE YES LIFE became really busy and over whelming, i could not fit shit in. THEN my wrist, i am dead sure it’s repetitive strain because when i have a dead line or need to get something finished i am straining and working all day til late at night.

Right now, i am over whelmed because not only do i have lots of things to make for orders, i still need to prep and make things for October and also Autumn/Winter/Christmas things to feature on my ‘not finished baby section’ as well as every thing else because this time of the year, without running a website  and orders is busy for me regardless. I opened up my bullet journal i have people’s birthdays left right even my own is in October – FUCK. And to anyone that knows me which you guys don’t, i am the type of person that once gets stressed stops and lets the world fly by and then cram shit in last minute because as much as i like to be busy i also like to be peaceful and i really don’t feel peaceful.

I managed to fit in this hat for myself! I follow someone MAJORLY talented, i mean you are all talented! Her name is Jessica Carey and she is the Hook Nook – This young beaut has such an eye when it comes to designing patterns and this is exactly where i got the pattern for this puff stitch hat from. I got it from Etsy and the link is here > The Hook Nook Etsy

I used my all time favourite yarn, King Cole Drifter. I swear to GOD i need more of this and i will get more because its so soft and snuggly, everytime i work with it i must say ‘oh wow this is beautiful’ as if it’s the first time lol!
I chose this colours last minute without the intention of making a hat, i think i was going to give myself some more practice at knitting and make socks or crochet a scarf, fuck knows tbh.
Then when i was browsing The Hook Nooks instagram i was like hmmmm, clicked her store and i finally purchased one of her patterns. I have been wanting to make something of hers for such a long time as she has this really cute top and jumper pattern but i still haven’t got in that jumper crochet mood yet! The hat however is pretty freakin perfect and this yarn is even more perfect for it.

I also never really like to make hats because everyone makes them and its just a popular, generic thing to make but i feel like when the weather is colder and that i have craft stalls it’s a good thing to use up some of my stash. 

 

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I used the clover pom pom make – PLEASE HELP ME. I always make my pom poms with a maker and everytime i do, no matter how tight i pull the pom pom at the end the strands afterwards are so easily pulled out. Can anyone advise me on how to stop this? I have used all types of thread etc, and i thought by buying the Clover set would make a difference. I have watched endless of videos and tried pretty much everything and it still doesn’t stop it from coming apart. 

I haven’t finished my book i am currently reading because i’ve been so busy, but if anyones interested i am reading The Dungeon House by Martin Edwards. I am enjoying it so i hope to finish it by the end of the weekend if i have time!

So i hope everyone is fine and dandy, i will be slowly catching up on blog posts so if i have clicked like and not commented i am going to i just wanted to be like oh hi i am here LOL plus when i scroll through my feed it reminds me to just quickly do that.

OH MY – Okay so i said i was going to write more, well i have being. I’ve entered some competitions which i won’t win but i started to write/plan and research this idea i have for a novel.
You know me i am a thriller kind of girl, well I’ve scrapped it. Literally today when i got pissed off at life and had a good moan/cry over the stupid things because i am a woman and i am just emotional hahahah it came to me. My story came to me, i know what path to take with my writing.
SO thank you to whatever that was, maybe i am actually opening my eyes more to my spirit guide and hearing it’s communications. – I know for a fucking fact that it or God or whatever exists doesn’t want me to win the lottery for some reason WHY IS THAT HUH?
I had a family member win ALOT on a scratch card not so long ago so every now and again i have been buying the same one and i was one off, i just needed a certain symbol and i would of been 300,000 richer. So i would like to say a huge screw you and piss off out of my good vibes to who ever is blocking my rich vibe.

I hope everyone has a good week/weekend, i won’t be blogging much as you can tell because i have lots to do but i am about on my Instagram don’t forget to get out Jessica carey, here website is Thehooknooklife

Insta: hook nook
Etsy: Puff stitch beanie pattern

 

PEACE OUT

Sunday – Reblog

One of my favourite blogs that I follow. Every single post makes me smile and relaxes me, I am so glad I follow. It breaks up all my hectic feed, I don’t have much to blog about so thought I would share! I wasn’t asked to do this but I think we all need something beautiful to look at once in a while.

Please check out CitySonnet and give them a follow you wont regret It!

 

balcony garden setting growing marigolds Thursday’s Special: Pick a Word In August – Y2 (setting, growth) Flower of the Day

via Little Marigolds —

Liverpool trip & Chit chat

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Well as you guys might know, i did mention i was going away for a few days last week with my boyfriend and er i did it haha.
I didn’t go anywhere crazy far away or fancy but other than a city called Liverpool, which if i might add IS actually fancy and modern, with lots of historical things to do and they have the docks, pier and beautiful sea air.

 

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Going away for this trip wasn’t a last minute thing we had been considering it for a while now, as my boyfriend originally planned to go on his own and meet friends but waiting for his friends to actually organize something was taking too long and i’ve been feeling really low and bored with life so i suggested we go to Liverpool for our trip.

I was looking at places by the sea and country side breaks etc but by the time i paid for only a few nights, then had to take the travel/train tickets into consideration it became quite pricey because it’s the summer holidays – So a city break was something more doable and pocket friendly.

I looked up Liverpool and it’s history, obviously it’s all about The Beatles but i aren’t actually a fan so i looked more into the historical things like St George’s hall which was my favourite attraction.
I was however quite sad that you needed to be in a guided tour to be able to go into restricted/certain areas which pissed me off – They had a main/basic tour trail for anyone what wants to wander freely but i mean come on!!! The only reason why i didn’t book the tour is i can’t stand being told things as a teacher point of view. I can sit and relax with a documentary on TV but i don’t know, it just annoys me i want to find the history out for myself – Even as a kid on school trips i got bored! Actually the only trip i loved was the Black country museum and as part of the class trip we had to dress and pretend we were at school, i got to be one of the naughty children (Typically ironic) and see what punishment was like. I loved it!
OK back to Liverpool, so yeah that was my only disappointment we couldn’t see all the main awesome things like go into the catacombs etc but i again it was my favourite because i had such eery feelings when we walked into the jail cells and around where the prisoners would go, i had constant vibes which made me even more fascinated.

 

 

 

The first day we did a lot of sight seeing and walking, we left early and because we couldn’t actually check into our hotel until 4:00PM we managed to fit a lot of things in including a quick meet up with on of my boyfriends friends.
The first museum we went to was actually at the Albert dock but we didn’t use that time to explore the dock or pier as we were going to do that on the day we were going home and fuck, over 100 steps we climbed. We could of got the lift but OMG so many people with prams, kids and i thought by the time we waited for the lift to even be empty or come to us we may as well walk. My legs hurt so bad 😦
The first night we were so tired, i did enjoy our first meal out which was called Yard & Coop it was a chicken restaurant. It had a chicken coop vibe and seats, it was awesome. Wouldn’t go again because the amount of food you get wasn’t really worth the price and it took over half an hour for me to get my bill when asked.

So then the next day meant i woke up still really tired, but our main adventure was the second day (Friday) Which was the main museums, art gallery and anything else random we could find but by the time we got to the art gallery i was fucking exhausted.
The first thing we did that day was breakfast, first time i’ve ever properly had pancakes, bacon and eggs with maple syrup i loved it. So anyways after that we strolled to the world museum and i was really excited for this because it had an aquarium, dinosaur stuff and world history like mummies etc.
If my legs weren’t suffering enough, my body and tiredness still hadn’t regenerated, we had more GOD DAMN stairs to climb. They had like a million floors and each time we had to climb the bastard steps because of people with prams and kids omg i swear kids should want to climb stairs they are young and athletic.

The world museum was OKAY – It was boring, the aquarium was shite like basically tiny tanks that would fit in my living room. My boyfriend was getting bored because museums aren’t his thing & so with the lack of resources – Though when it came to like fossils and stuff about plants, or the floor with bugs it was cool i did take some pictures.

I will skip ahead because as much as i love dinosaurs it was lacking, the section about ancient Egypt was fucking amazing.  Okay to get to know me better, i love history. Especially when it comes to ancient Egypt, i remember that and Tudor/Victorian times were my favourite things to learn about at school and as i got older i loved it even more.

So the section with the mummies and tombs WERE REAL – YES THEY WERE REAL DEAD MUMMIFIED PEOPLE. I couldn’t get over it, i wanted to touch it :/ dead bodies don’t freak me out. Not because i see them every day but back then it was a thing you know? So it was normal, other wise i don’t want to fall under the category of being some kind of psychopath which i did an online test for as i am researching serial killers for a possible story, and if the score is 31% you fall into being a psychopath, i was like 21% WHICH isn’t far off – BUT it wasn’t a legit scientific test, its all fun ( i think)

ANYWAYS – so the Egyptian part was the longest, so we got tired and our feet were killing us.
We left (down the lift which took fucking ages because it kept stopping) it was time to find something else to do but we were so tired and grouchy that when we went to the art gallery it turned into grouchy moodyness and my boyfriend wasn’t really interested in MOST of the art and it was kind of really big so personally, you would need a good few hours or so to actually check out all of the art work because they had so many sections – Mordern, ancient, before the 1700s, victorian – All different categories, all different years.
I did how ever get to meet Kind Henry, that happened to be a main attraction painting it was actually cool and Queen Lizzie – They also had a few Jesus paintings which were cool and the pictures i took doesn’t capture the actual size – Some of the sizes were bigger than LIFE! They also had an early copy of the Mona Lisa, which was kind of cool to see.

Then we go into the embarrassing section of the gallery. It was called coming out, it was for the LGBT community which was cool as some of the paintings had a really interesting back story and ALOT of meaning. It was also interesting to see a time line of the laws from the very first up until now, AND ironically my baby King Henry was the first LOL
But my boyfriend didn’t know where to put his face when we saw photo’s of men just standing with there dicks out, bless him.
We did really enjoy one set of art which was a story of a mother and son combined into one it was pretty cool.

The most of the trip we spent exploring and walking around, I managed to visit he MAC store and treat my mum to a new lipstick because she gutted my flat and spring cleaned it for me whilst I was away. Except the bedroom because I am having a new bed tomorrow yay!!

I really enjoyed taking a few days away from reality, I took lots of pictures but I’ve only shown you a few because we would be here all day and plus if you follow me on Instagram you would of seen my insta story – SORRY if that was annoying haha but I rarely use FB anymore to share stuff unless it’s my FB store page.

Our next adventure is going to be somewhere we feel we can relax and maybe turn it into 5 days. I’d really like to visit Dorset, Cornwall, Wales (Snowdonia) or the Lake District but I think anywhere that we can get a good deal!!
So thank you for reading if you did I know this is long as fuck and I don’t care, I will say though it’s been hard to write about my trip because you never know where to start and I always ramble.

 

I have some cool plans, I’ve been writing more as you know and I am entering a few short story competitions. One is womens fiction which I do read every now and again and sometimes write about but my heart is thriller, though it will be a challenge for me to see where my talent lies. What kind of writer am I?
I’m also on another book now so once this one has finished I will be setting up the book club, by book club I mean you can join in if you want!

I have some more crocheting to do this week for orders, and then it will of slowed down for a few weeks or so which is good because I have LOTS of shit to make for a fayre for the 14th of October and I am also going to be making a start on Christmas items for the store as well as Christmas items for my December fayre.

I haven’t done much with my bullet journal folks, when I went through my really low point I didn’t care to do much and I am still only just getting back on track. Now that I have made some serious decisions about my writing I feel excited, but really nervous. I don’t want to submit a short story and then be laughed about I don’t know what Is, I know my writing is far from perfect which Is why I am trying to put myself out and learn but at the same time I actually want to win something. I’m really competitive, I am that family member that will throw the monopoly board across the room. 

 

That’s it for now!!!

 

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I also need to add that when we went to museum by the dock, they had a world war data base. Now my last name is spelt Pursell, its rare as it’s usually Purcell. I managed to find one person on the world war 1 data base with Pursell, so I am looking into this because it mentions French/France and I know we have some French ancestors – Super excited.  So I will do an uodate whenever I can collect some more info on this!

Book review – NOD, by Adrian Barnes

Alright, well i am back from my few days trip. I actually got back Saturday but I’ve kind of been recovering and trying to get back to reality! Why is it so vile when you come home, like it just all becomes so boring. I am going to do a full post on my trip at the end of the week and share some pictures, i will work in my crochet dolls i have done as i will be a tad busy to do the three post shite.
OK, so finished reading the book NOD – Keep reading if you want my thoughts!

9781783298228

 

Dawn breaks over Vancouver and no one in the world has slept the night before, or almost no one. A few people, perhaps one in ten thousand, can still sleep, and they’ve all shared the same golden dream. After six days of absolute sleep deprivation, psychosis will set in. After four weeks, the body will die. In the interim, panic ensues and a bizarre new world arises in which those previously on the fringes of society take the lead. Paul, a writer, continues to sleep while his partner Tanya disintegrates before his eyes, and the new world swallows the old one whole.

Publisher: Titan Books Ltd

 

About the author – Okay, so i could only find bits about the author and i haven’t found ant social media links, which was sad because i know that he had cancer and would love to find out how he is doing and just what he’s up to in general – ALSO, if or when he will publish another book.

He was born in the UK and i believe he lives in Canada now? I have a link here with some information on him and an article which goes into a little more in depth about his cancer and how writing this book plays a huge part in that.

About Adrian
Adrian article

 

Overall book rating 8/10

I loved this book, it’s everything i could possibly want in a Dystopian novel, i love apocalypses and all things dark and gloomy. This is the kind of writer i aim to be some day and so reading a book like this, that hits all the good parts about a favourite genre or style of writing got me seriously hyped up and excited to write myself.

The way Adrian used insomnia to tell this apocalyptic story is just brilliant. People can’t sleep and turn into insane sleep deprived humans, who will die eventually.
The descriptions and some scenes in this book as well as actions have hidden meanings and are even damn right spot on when it comes to how you feel and act when you don’t get much sleep – What’s interesting is how the world changes the longer they live without sleep. How it turns them less human by the day, sort of monster like.

Each chapter represented a day in the life of the story, so chapter 3 would be day 3. The more you read, the more you wanted to know what happened and how or when they would all die, which sounds kind of grim but this book gives you such huge curiosity. For me, instead of watching or reading something world ending you usually wish the best out come and that everyone or at least some kind of happy ending exists, i wanted to see the death. – I really did want to know what happens in the end if you never sleep, because how many times have you secretly wished more hours in the day, or that you never be tired. After reading this i sure as shit want to sleep but i won’t lie…..

I struggle with insomnia so i totally got the hidden messages and in fact for the first few days of reading this i couldn’t sleep properly because it was on my mind. What a horribly fucking thing to happen. The world is ending by something that we need the most, which is more scary than having zombies come and eat me.

If you want to be scared but intrigued at the same time then this book is for you. It’s not so much scary in the sense of some kind of arsehole like Jason or Freddie coming to get you but something about apocalypses and the end of the world always sets me off and makes me feel kind of odd.
It will leave a mark and leave you shook, it left me thinking if this could happen and books, horrors or dystopia very rarely do that.

It’s a quick read, and could be even quicker if you are someone that flies through books like your change of knickers – What’s even more interesting is the authors thoughts when he had cancer, he said he started to feel similarities to the book. Which is why linked the article above because its quite interesting to read.

I think an 8/10 is fair, i just wish i knew ALOT more about the author because i have this weird urge to investigate and stay up to date with authors i enjoy, i really hope he pushes out some more books because i think he is a brilliant writer.

 

Book club starts in a few weeks, i am about to start a new book to review and as well as that sift through the perfect one for anyone that wishes to join in after.

Thanks for reading! I’ll be playing blog catch up tomorrow, the joys.

Goodbye July – Short story

I drew back the curtains and took one deep breath, it was dawn once again. I had slept little and had been doing so for such a long time, I couldn’t even remember the last meal that had satisfied my appetite. My eyes were tired and my bones felt numb – Was today finally the last? When the sun rises will we all be able to breathe without fear.

The summer nights were darker than ever recorded, but the mornings remained the same. Our crops were dying and the closet stores near us that sold food were beginning to look empty. Morning meetings would happen and we would all get told the number of food that’s left for us all, I think without this order and rationing we may have died of starvation a long time ago. Without our crops, we won’t even be able to harvest the basics, and with cities far away it would be suicide to venture out. – But what is left for us to do? The sick are getting sicker and are children are not growing, do we step outside our zone and head for the city. I’ve heard bad things and what might happen to most of us, we would be checked for infection and either spared to live in a colony or shot dead on the spot. You can see fire and smoke in the distance, we used to wonder about it until we had such bad winds so fierce that it blew the scent of burning flesh into our little town. Our once precious sanctuary, that’s now protected by farmers and boys with guns – Fences that only give us so much land to live but it protects us. We have a perimeter and rules, even a curfew just so we can keep living. But it’s not living, is it? It’s surviving and that to me isn’t happiness. It’s a sad fucking way to go…..

 

Now that July has come to an end, I feel that it won’t just be us surviving but fighting to do so. This might just be the last July I’ll ever see.

Good bye July, til we meet again.