Crochet catch up and stuff

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So, i was going to start this week off with another Make up Monday post, but then i got distracted by the fact that today, the 12th is my birthday and i am now 27. Which depressed me, plus i had shit to do okay?

God almighty, why is it when your doing blankets they take forever? Seriously, don’t feel like they are growing especially this one that i posted a picture of. The pattern i am following is here in case you are wondering. I’m pretty sure people interact with me on instagram and then i forget lol!
So, i think i mentioned i have two more mini unicorns to make which is for the two blankets order. Which all need to be done by the end of October, so pray for me guys because you know me and my mind gets distracted. I’ve had a new game for my birthday, and i’ve got shit loads of ideas in my head for writing AND makeup releases.
MAKE SURE I STAY ON TRACK GET ORDERS DONE.

Already have two more orders to do right after these little buggers are done 😦 When will it end? One being a custom doll, and a bloody mermaid tail. YEP they are creeping back…. Also need to get in the festive mood, bah humbug. I found this awesome pattern for gonk’s and an add on pattern for outfits and because my stall in December is going to be at the fire station i am going to make some mini fire men.
Also need to make poppies, but don’t think i’ll have time. I might make a poppy wreath and do a little auction or something on Ebay so you guys and anyone else can get involved and get the money raised sent to the British legion.
My lead for my camera has arrived so i can link it up to my laptop and use it as a live view screen whilst filming, so tomorrow i am going to film my first beauty video and then go straight into filming a little crochet tutorial 😀
and because my Youtube channel is going to be Lifestyle, i need your help in what type of videos i could do other than crochet/craft and beauty. ????????????

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I had this awesome story idea, and i am going to write it up over the weekend. I’ve stored it in my brain so i  hope its all in tact as i hateeeeeeeeeee jotting stuff down.
It might be longer than usual, but i am really kind of excited about this.

My mum bought me a new bullet journal and some water colour brush pens for my birthday. I am going to do a post about my gifts not because i want to brag but it will give me an excuse to post about this scarf i’ve kind of started for myself.. You see, swaying off track with my orders.
Oh yeah, bullet journal. So i aren’t going to use the new one until January, which means i can take the full on piss with the one i currently have. As it has LOTS of pages left and was thinking of carrying it over for next year, but i think i will crack on with it and i haven’t used it this month, i think i will start it this weekend for October. I have been using it more for lists and getting organised with stuff i have.

Example, i have over 700 DVDs, which isn’t alot i know but i want to write down every single one i have, and if i have collections that aren’t completed i need to note down what i need etc.

I did a point to this post, i’ve gotten lost. HELP HELP HELP!!! OH yeah i am writing another post for tomorrow as i am reviewing an eyeshadow palette.
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Tomorrow, in the morning because i love the morning time in Autumn and winter, i am heading down the road to my park and take some pictures. Hopefully nobody will think i am a freak, pervert or will try and steal my camera.

Just looked at the picture above and I’ve already thought of another story, fml.

OKAY so i learned a fact today, Kim Kardashian is a Libran like me. I think i know why i kind of like her? But bitch my birthday is before yours ner ner ner ner. But then you have the one up because your are older and look younger than me. Now i am more depressed.
No seriously, today has been actually depressing for a birthday i got about 4 cards, a phone call from my dad who i’ve never had a relationship with and i had a good old cry earlier when i went to sit on the crapper.
27 and i feel like i’ve achieved nothing. Still in debt, no money, blah blah! I need to change things and i need to do the things i said i would do years ago.
-Write my novel.

 

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Before we wrap this up, here is some things about my star sign. OH and i’ve been keeping an eye on the lunar calender is it? Ever since i took a picture of the moon and got really close, i got these feelings back from when i was a kid in science class. I’ve always loved the universe, and i think i am going to relive some of my old interests again. Go back to my roots and be happy with the things i used to love. We easily forget about stuff we were once passionate about or cared for because life gets in the way.
So being a science geek once again, and listening to Tupac everyday. I know what a mixture?

Ruling planet : Venus

Element : Air

Quality : Cardinal (= activity)

Symbol : The Scales

The Symbol denotes : Harmony, Justice and a Balanced Nature

Characteristics : Airy, Cardinal, Masculine, Positive, Humane

Noteworthy qualities : Thoughtful, unbiased, graceful, modest, adaptable, persuasive, affectionate, cheerful, sympathetic, generous, tactful, balanced.

Undesirable personality traits : Indecisive, extremist, reckless, hasty, susceptible, aloof, tend to get carried away by others’ opinions. You might also be interested to explore about Libra Moon Sign.

Birthstone : Diamond, White Sapphire and White Topaz (The gemstone is suggested considering Aries as the Ascendant/Lagna Sign. To know your Ascendant/Lagna Sign, click here.)

Birth Colours : All shades of pink, White,

Other lucky colours : Shades of Blue, Pale and Light Green

Lucky Numbers : 6, 15, 24, 33, 42, 51, 60

Compatible Signs : Gemini, Aquarius

Lucky Day : Friday

Deepest need : Love, Romance, Social Harmony.

Quality most needed for balance : A Sense of Self, Self-Reliance, Independence

Detriment : Mars

Exaltation : Saturn

Fall : The Sun

Associated Flowers and Plants : Hydrangeas, Large Roses, Lilies, Violets, All Blue Flowers

Best Sign/s for marriage and/or partnerships : Aries

Anatomically Libra corresponds to : The lumber region in general and the kidneys in particular; loins, ovaries and the substance of the kidneys; lumber vertebrae, just below the ribs; lower back muscles at the top of the pelvic bone; arteries going to the kidney and lower back; veins coming from the kidneys and lower back.

To read more about my amazing starsign click here and don’t forget to check out yours! I love this shit, again going to enjoying things i used to.

So thanks for reading and if you made it this far, well i haven’t got a prize to give you but feel free to check out my instagram and other links and maybe i have some prizes… Yes that’s a ploy, again i have no prizes.

 

Serious question before i go. Does anyone know anything about guardian angels or experiences? It’s on behalf of my mum, i think she had an experience over a week ago and i’m just curious to learn more. 

 

 

PEACE OUT!

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My top 5 beauty-ish items

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Well guess, testing the waters with a new blogging schedule i have going on. So each week i’ll have 3/4 different types posts AND YES i am going to stay consistent. Tomorrow i will properly set out my bullet journal and plan plan plan. I also though might be starting a new part time job, SO i won’t be saying what days i post.
As you can guess, one post will consist of beauty related – Doesn’t mean makeup! So anything from products we need for our body to a bit of lippy. Anything you want tips on or know about just ask, i know some stuff LOL.
Second type of post will be of course CROCHETING, how can i not show what i’ve made? Third post will be short stories, i enjoy them and i want to push out more. The Autumn and winter really inspires me so keep a look out. Now, fourth post might not always happen but i want to keep this category open to pretty much whatever i feel like talking about, i might even utilize book reviews & maybe if i have an fellow gamers do a gaming discussion? Shit, maybe then i should make that five posts. OH and i am aware i’ve slacked massively with book reviews.

Now that’s over PHEW,  so this post is basically dedicated to things/products i basically need in my life and why i’ve chose them. All pictures will be a direct link to where you can buy them, which will be a UK Store but these things i hope you can pretty much get anywhere!!!!

1. Pantyliners


Why do women find it embarrassing to talk about these things? What is wrong with buying Femfresh lady wash or panty liners. No i don’t have a yeast infection or a smelly you know.
This actually became an obsession of mine in highschool, when i first started my period, the whole after thing where you don’t get much if any at all coming out but you feel like you might kind of thing? Well being self conscious enough i lived in these, then as i got older they became a sort of thing i would used every now and again. I don’t get periods so i only wear these when i feel like i am going to be doing a lot of walking and moving about. Yep lets admit it, we sweat. All over! And if it’s not all the time, it happens sometimes. I like the feeling that i am not leaking into my pants. You get me? NO this is not disgusting this is real shit. Also, sometimes when i cough or laugh too hard i pee a bit so yeah these come in handy. Take them anywhere, they are small they fold. OH and if you don’t always use them, if you get the scented ones throw them in your drawer for a fresh scent.  #UsingPantylinersAsAirFreshner

 

2. Ponds face cream

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If you haven’t heard of Pond’s then ask your Grandma, this has been around for such a long time! And to this day people swear by it. They are right, not only is it affordable it’s kind of one of those creams you just pick up and use daily.
This hydro nourishing cream for day and night is something i use everyday! I have oily skin, but keeping my face hydrated and soft (especially after using so many products that helps with oily skin) it’s kind of a must have for me. I use this before my makeup primer as well, and i like to lay it on and let it soak in. Why? Even though my skin is oil and i get spots, my make up products tend to me matte. So matte/hydrating primer and matte foundation and even most of the time matte setting powder. My skin still needs to have oils and nourishment. AND YES AND if your into the cakey/full coverage look you kind of need extra moisture to stop creasing, cracking and drying.
This is not just for that, everyday and night i wash my face and pile this on. It feels so cooling, smells lovely and doesn’t harm my skin. and i am sensitive! Even when i’m breaking out, this doesn’t sting those spots.
They do lots lots more kinds of these creams, so whatever your after specifically somewhere at your local drugstore should sell them. This is probably my favourite beauty thing ever!

3. Garnier Mineral Invisible Deodorant 48Hr Roll-On

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This is one of those products where i probably would die if i didn’t have it. I used to use the spray deodorant and i couldn’t quite understand especially in my early twenties when my hormones and sweat was crazy, as to why i still did sweat a lot. Sometimes, thankfully whilst not out in public i would smell. I tried every god damn brand and i think i came close when i used Right Guard for women, but i after long hours of work in a warehouse sweating or clubbing i would be always spraying when i had the chance.
Then about two years ago, might even be three i switched it up to roll on. Fuck me, my life changed. Now i wasn’t and aren’t that sweaty,  i can’t remember the last time my sweat was down to my waist from just sitting in my room but i still sweat. I felt like even less sweat patches would appear after using roll on and i would get those little patches, which i am actually fine with i don’t care. I tried a lot of brands, i liked Sure for a while then Dove. I was always switching between the two and trying the different types but even though i felt happier with my under arm life style i saw the Garnier one on offer and thought oh yeah them, i’ll try it. Now the picture isn’t the on i use, i think i used one with a light green cap because i think it was for sensitive skin.
I love it, i literally love. The smell lasts, so when you do get a bit sweaty you smell of roses. No seriously, if your under arm smelt like shit, it wouldn’t no more.
Plus these are small, handy to throw in your bag and perfect for travelling with. I use it once daily, if i have been making myself sweat a lot like walking up the massive bank with a food shop i usually roll on some more but i think that’s out of pure habit.

 

4. Rimmel Clear Complexion Transparent powder

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What kind of list would it be if it didn’t have make up?? Okay, so firstly any powder i get i use translucent or a little peachy. I’ve been using Rimmel in general, mainly the setting/face powders since highschool.
They get it spot on every time! I also use the Rimmel insta fix powder, i tend to switch between this one that one and the stay matte. If my foundation is TOO light which sometimes is the case, i use the stay matte one in the shade just peachy or something like that to just warm my face up. I don’t want to warm up too much because i am really pale, and most of the time i use a wee bit of bronzer in the contour areas (not actually contouring) and some blush. BUT these are awesome, they really do keep your make up matte and nicely put for a good few hours. If needed you can just blot in your t-zone. The thing i love about Rimmel powders is they are old school but they will always remain a go to product for make up lovers. Even if you don’t wear much makeup just get a shade that matches you and lightly powder on to decrease oil and give your face a bit of colour. Perfect if your an on the go mum or someone that doesn’t always have time to do makeup. Most of the time i just can’t be arsed.
Now i don’t know about your drug stores, but i have to get two at a time when i buy these because the Rimmel stand is always a hot mess and the powders, especially the Insta fix. As always though, they don’t have many shades for anyone that’s a deeper tone, they tend to have more range for the lighter skin or slightly tanned but that’s only in some of my local stores so maybe across the pond or the world everyone of all types of skin has a good choice!

 

5. Garnier 2in1 Eye Make-up Remover

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This is one of my favourite eye make up removers i have ever used! Even if you don’t have a lot on, this still is fucking awesome. So i tend to get rid of my eye make up first, now this does have oil in but its not too oily. In fact once I’ve  got rid of my eye make up, i rub the access in and it’s actually minimal. The picture you are looking at is quite true, the purple on top is where the oil sits so make sure you give it a good shake up before using. Get a cotton pod and squirt a bit on, if you use too much that’s fine. Get another cotton pad place it on top, press and some of the access will go onto the next pad. BOOM you have one for each eye, which yeah its hygienic. Don’t use the same pad for both eyes YUCK. Oh and don’t start rubbing your eye straight away, press onto your eyes or mascara and allow to melt, then gently rub. I say all this but i usually go to ham and rub hahahahahaha.
I can’t really say much more, it does what it says on the tin. Now, i have sensitive skin and eyes and have never had an issue with this product, but you might just want to double check if this one is right for you. The Garnier face and eye range have all different colours so maybe pink or green might be for you, i think the pink face stuff has rose water in though!
So yeah, an eye make up remover is kind of a deffo need as i just don’t like taking off my make up using the same thing etc and this formula, especially just slides the make up off. ALSO another great thing that is small and perfect to throw in your beauty bag or when you go off on your travels.

 
SO guys that’s it, i could talk all day about what i like and don’t like and i have a lot of favourite makeup products i could throw in for another post but also thinking about doing a video on that as well. I try and shop for things i can afford, i will never be the high end luxury girl because i will never have the money to spend it on that type of stuff. I’m always on the look out for decent drugstore products, because yeah it’s kind of hard to find that!
I’m open to doing reviews, so if you want me to try anything and give you my thoughts let me know. I think this is going to be pretty fun!

 

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Thanks for reading xo

 

I can fly – poem 

Let’s pretend that I can fly,

And see the world from way up high,

With my wings the things I see,

Is a world that pretends to be.

-Rebecca Pursell 

Bye Bye August – Random chit chat

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Well, as far as crocheting is concerned i am working away at orders and don’t have many finished NEW and exciting WIPs – Except the hat. I have however managed to get back into my bullet journal and now my life is becoming before busier than usual i feel like i need to set routine for my crocheting, especially now i need things to get done.

I aren’t the greatest artist, but i actually took some time with what i’ve put into this month and started a new bullet journal book because i fucked up the last one. And by that i mean i got pissed off with how scruffy it was and threw it out. I have this OCD thing where if a notepad or in this case my bullet journal has too much scruff in it or doesn’t look nice inside i have to have brand new. Which i think related to my hoarding issues because i have ALOT of notebooks that all has the same stuff in it but it’s all been re-written because a few pages in the old one was bit messy.

I have around 6 weeks for my first stall and i have jack shit made, do you also want to know something else about me? Okay, so i have tried all my life to plan etc and i even am trying now but i just cannot plan ahead – I am a last minute person, i always will be. I can’t even plan what i am going to do at the weekend, even though i know i will be doing the same thing like relaxing and gaming but i want to go our Monkey forest but i can’t tell you if i will or what time.

When we wen to Liverpool, i got an open return ticket which means you can catch anytime to and from – But i had planned in my head the exact time i want to arrive so i got the train times and guess what? I got the next one because i was running late.
I think when it comes to the morning and just waking up, it takes me a long time to function. We are talking an hour before i start to move, i tend to relax with a cup of tea check emails, messages watch pointless conspiracy theory videos and then i will have a second cup of tea. I thought this would change since i quit smoking, because that would be in the routine but it hasn’t – So i am fucking lazy basically.
When it comes to over all planning and what time, or what time to meet people its a kind of ‘hey mum lets meet at noonish’ and remember the ISH part, because that then gives me my excuse for if i am running late. ‘Why you so late, you said noon?’ NO mate i said noonish.

And we have swayed way off track, so what were are learning right now is that i have some mental issues – I hoard, i can’t plan, I have weird OCD things.

If i can’t fascinate you with my life and babbling’s how will i ever get people to read my book when and if it surfaces – Again this is where the i can’t plan thing comes into play.
How the foook, am i going to keep track of my bullet journal LOL

 

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So the picture above is my habit trackers for September, Writing being the main one which Crochet should be bigger but the reason i made the writing one bigger is because of the space next to each date. – So the purpose of the habit tracker is to track each day something you do etc, so i will highlight on the day i do these things and with the writing one next to the day i am just going to jot down how many words i do.
I am aiming for the min of 1,000 because sometimes when i write not alot comes out and i don’t want to force too much and then sometimes lots and lots comes out. Hopefully with this i can gauge the average word count and what days i do write for next month and then i will hopefully set a writing routine.

 

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This is actually not a monthly collection/list but this is part of the collections before you start your actually diary/month – I am in the works to do a video, i really fucking promise i’ll do it. I just can’t PLAN when. Have you noticed when i’ve planned to do something and show you guys on my blog i don’t do it – TOLD YOU, planning problems.
I just thought i would create a two page spread of recipes i want to try, one side for me and my boyfriend and the second side solely for me as i am more open minded to trying to new things. OR i could use it for healthy recipes because i am getting more fatter. I need someone to throw salad at me.

I am a free bird, i do what i want when i want.

 

And that is about it, i felt like i need to blog because i was in a chatty mood! Hopefully next week i will post some pictures of what i am working on order wise. I just don’t want to right now because i like to get so far in an order before showing a preview as it keeps that kind of element of surprise! Plus two are blankets and are looooooooooooooooooong.

 

OH OH OH – British bake off has started, i really enjoyed it even though its been taken over by shitty Channel 4 – ADVERTS OMG i can’t cope, sooo i might have to watch it on catch up because at least with BBC one you didn’t have to watch people badly mime a fucking script for tooth paste.

Also started watching the TV series The Vikings, obsessed! Just finished season 1, i believe season 5 starts in a few months so i need to go out and get the rest.

 

OH OH, i haven’t done much in the way of practising my calligraphy or handwriting but it’s my birthday in October and made a list of a few things to get me so i can actually have some kind of guidance/exercise books which i saw on amazon.

 

Book reviews LOLOLOL ok i haven’t finished my current read, i got busy. And now it’s been a few weeks i cant be arsed with that story though it will bug me if i don’t finish it. 

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! I hope everyone is fine and dandy 😀

Sunday – Reblog

One of my favourite blogs that I follow. Every single post makes me smile and relaxes me, I am so glad I follow. It breaks up all my hectic feed, I don’t have much to blog about so thought I would share! I wasn’t asked to do this but I think we all need something beautiful to look at once in a while.

Please check out CitySonnet and give them a follow you wont regret It!

 

balcony garden setting growing marigolds Thursday’s Special: Pick a Word In August – Y2 (setting, growth) Flower of the Day

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Liverpool trip & Chit chat

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Well as you guys might know, i did mention i was going away for a few days last week with my boyfriend and er i did it haha.
I didn’t go anywhere crazy far away or fancy but other than a city called Liverpool, which if i might add IS actually fancy and modern, with lots of historical things to do and they have the docks, pier and beautiful sea air.

 

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Going away for this trip wasn’t a last minute thing we had been considering it for a while now, as my boyfriend originally planned to go on his own and meet friends but waiting for his friends to actually organize something was taking too long and i’ve been feeling really low and bored with life so i suggested we go to Liverpool for our trip.

I was looking at places by the sea and country side breaks etc but by the time i paid for only a few nights, then had to take the travel/train tickets into consideration it became quite pricey because it’s the summer holidays – So a city break was something more doable and pocket friendly.

I looked up Liverpool and it’s history, obviously it’s all about The Beatles but i aren’t actually a fan so i looked more into the historical things like St George’s hall which was my favourite attraction.
I was however quite sad that you needed to be in a guided tour to be able to go into restricted/certain areas which pissed me off – They had a main/basic tour trail for anyone what wants to wander freely but i mean come on!!! The only reason why i didn’t book the tour is i can’t stand being told things as a teacher point of view. I can sit and relax with a documentary on TV but i don’t know, it just annoys me i want to find the history out for myself – Even as a kid on school trips i got bored! Actually the only trip i loved was the Black country museum and as part of the class trip we had to dress and pretend we were at school, i got to be one of the naughty children (Typically ironic) and see what punishment was like. I loved it!
OK back to Liverpool, so yeah that was my only disappointment we couldn’t see all the main awesome things like go into the catacombs etc but i again it was my favourite because i had such eery feelings when we walked into the jail cells and around where the prisoners would go, i had constant vibes which made me even more fascinated.

 

 

 

The first day we did a lot of sight seeing and walking, we left early and because we couldn’t actually check into our hotel until 4:00PM we managed to fit a lot of things in including a quick meet up with on of my boyfriends friends.
The first museum we went to was actually at the Albert dock but we didn’t use that time to explore the dock or pier as we were going to do that on the day we were going home and fuck, over 100 steps we climbed. We could of got the lift but OMG so many people with prams, kids and i thought by the time we waited for the lift to even be empty or come to us we may as well walk. My legs hurt so bad 😦
The first night we were so tired, i did enjoy our first meal out which was called Yard & Coop it was a chicken restaurant. It had a chicken coop vibe and seats, it was awesome. Wouldn’t go again because the amount of food you get wasn’t really worth the price and it took over half an hour for me to get my bill when asked.

So then the next day meant i woke up still really tired, but our main adventure was the second day (Friday) Which was the main museums, art gallery and anything else random we could find but by the time we got to the art gallery i was fucking exhausted.
The first thing we did that day was breakfast, first time i’ve ever properly had pancakes, bacon and eggs with maple syrup i loved it. So anyways after that we strolled to the world museum and i was really excited for this because it had an aquarium, dinosaur stuff and world history like mummies etc.
If my legs weren’t suffering enough, my body and tiredness still hadn’t regenerated, we had more GOD DAMN stairs to climb. They had like a million floors and each time we had to climb the bastard steps because of people with prams and kids omg i swear kids should want to climb stairs they are young and athletic.

The world museum was OKAY – It was boring, the aquarium was shite like basically tiny tanks that would fit in my living room. My boyfriend was getting bored because museums aren’t his thing & so with the lack of resources – Though when it came to like fossils and stuff about plants, or the floor with bugs it was cool i did take some pictures.

I will skip ahead because as much as i love dinosaurs it was lacking, the section about ancient Egypt was fucking amazing.  Okay to get to know me better, i love history. Especially when it comes to ancient Egypt, i remember that and Tudor/Victorian times were my favourite things to learn about at school and as i got older i loved it even more.

So the section with the mummies and tombs WERE REAL – YES THEY WERE REAL DEAD MUMMIFIED PEOPLE. I couldn’t get over it, i wanted to touch it :/ dead bodies don’t freak me out. Not because i see them every day but back then it was a thing you know? So it was normal, other wise i don’t want to fall under the category of being some kind of psychopath which i did an online test for as i am researching serial killers for a possible story, and if the score is 31% you fall into being a psychopath, i was like 21% WHICH isn’t far off – BUT it wasn’t a legit scientific test, its all fun ( i think)

ANYWAYS – so the Egyptian part was the longest, so we got tired and our feet were killing us.
We left (down the lift which took fucking ages because it kept stopping) it was time to find something else to do but we were so tired and grouchy that when we went to the art gallery it turned into grouchy moodyness and my boyfriend wasn’t really interested in MOST of the art and it was kind of really big so personally, you would need a good few hours or so to actually check out all of the art work because they had so many sections – Mordern, ancient, before the 1700s, victorian – All different categories, all different years.
I did how ever get to meet Kind Henry, that happened to be a main attraction painting it was actually cool and Queen Lizzie – They also had a few Jesus paintings which were cool and the pictures i took doesn’t capture the actual size – Some of the sizes were bigger than LIFE! They also had an early copy of the Mona Lisa, which was kind of cool to see.

Then we go into the embarrassing section of the gallery. It was called coming out, it was for the LGBT community which was cool as some of the paintings had a really interesting back story and ALOT of meaning. It was also interesting to see a time line of the laws from the very first up until now, AND ironically my baby King Henry was the first LOL
But my boyfriend didn’t know where to put his face when we saw photo’s of men just standing with there dicks out, bless him.
We did really enjoy one set of art which was a story of a mother and son combined into one it was pretty cool.

The most of the trip we spent exploring and walking around, I managed to visit he MAC store and treat my mum to a new lipstick because she gutted my flat and spring cleaned it for me whilst I was away. Except the bedroom because I am having a new bed tomorrow yay!!

I really enjoyed taking a few days away from reality, I took lots of pictures but I’ve only shown you a few because we would be here all day and plus if you follow me on Instagram you would of seen my insta story – SORRY if that was annoying haha but I rarely use FB anymore to share stuff unless it’s my FB store page.

Our next adventure is going to be somewhere we feel we can relax and maybe turn it into 5 days. I’d really like to visit Dorset, Cornwall, Wales (Snowdonia) or the Lake District but I think anywhere that we can get a good deal!!
So thank you for reading if you did I know this is long as fuck and I don’t care, I will say though it’s been hard to write about my trip because you never know where to start and I always ramble.

 

I have some cool plans, I’ve been writing more as you know and I am entering a few short story competitions. One is womens fiction which I do read every now and again and sometimes write about but my heart is thriller, though it will be a challenge for me to see where my talent lies. What kind of writer am I?
I’m also on another book now so once this one has finished I will be setting up the book club, by book club I mean you can join in if you want!

I have some more crocheting to do this week for orders, and then it will of slowed down for a few weeks or so which is good because I have LOTS of shit to make for a fayre for the 14th of October and I am also going to be making a start on Christmas items for the store as well as Christmas items for my December fayre.

I haven’t done much with my bullet journal folks, when I went through my really low point I didn’t care to do much and I am still only just getting back on track. Now that I have made some serious decisions about my writing I feel excited, but really nervous. I don’t want to submit a short story and then be laughed about I don’t know what Is, I know my writing is far from perfect which Is why I am trying to put myself out and learn but at the same time I actually want to win something. I’m really competitive, I am that family member that will throw the monopoly board across the room. 

 

That’s it for now!!!

 

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I also need to add that when we went to museum by the dock, they had a world war data base. Now my last name is spelt Pursell, its rare as it’s usually Purcell. I managed to find one person on the world war 1 data base with Pursell, so I am looking into this because it mentions French/France and I know we have some French ancestors – Super excited.  So I will do an uodate whenever I can collect some more info on this!

Weekend diary – It’s okay that I don’t have kids.

I wasn’t really going to post again but things have been bothering me and as you can tell by the title its about motherhood – And a little bit more.
(PLEASE READ THE LAST BIT ID LOVE FOR THIS TO BE A THING!!)

As the world grows, we grow. The population is expanding and I didn’t really notice this in highschool or even younger that the urge to have children either young or in general grows increasingly popular.
Now I’m not here to throw statistics because this post is coming from the heart, and hopefully anyone else that is kind of in this situation.

So firstly, I don’t dislike children, I don’t hate the idea of being a mother and I sure as shit don’t hate anyone that embarks on becoming parent. It’s really not about trashing parenting or kids – It’s the people aka parents or society’s treatment towards those who don’t have any at all.

What bought this on? Okay, I am 26 pushing 27 and every now and again I think about having a baby and how cute and awesome it would be to have a mini me. I get kind of sad that I aren’t already a mother because most if not all people that I know/friends are already parents or becoming. So when I see this, it upsets me even more – But that’s actually another reason which we will get at.
I then ask my boyfriend about the subject of kids and you know I think because he’s this typical guy its like ‘lets not talk about that’ or ‘don’t want kids’ I used to get upset with his reactions but then I actually realised I really aren’t ready to commit to having a baby. I am not in love fully with the idea of becoming a mum.
Because once that moment of sadness goes, I’m like kids what the fuck no.

Which is good right? I know that I am not ready, well I don’t think a parent really ever is but the mental idea of being a happy family is not my thing. In fact seeing the amount of people with children just lately is really annoying as hell… I mean come on, don’t you ever feel like people just NEED to plaster it ever about how awesome there child is, how big the baby’s first shit was or the constant updates of someone that is becoming a mother. The pregnancy process is the same right? I don’t need to see 100 females on my timeline complaining about the the same shit to do with being pregnant.
I literally had to stop following a youtuber/crocheter because her weekly vlogs or any kind of vlog/blog was constant pregnancy and I just don’t get excited for people who are pregnant..

Which is something else, I literally don’t care. Your pregnant yay, how am I meant to react? Okay babies are super cute and I love crocheting baby items because they are waaaaaay prettier than some of the stuff for us adults!
Like I’ve said, I don’t had kids!

Okay, so most of my friends or people I know have kids. It’s all super cute at first and I am genuinely happy for them because they are glowing, excited and shopping for adorable things but then it’s 4 hours later and I am bored. Once the baby is born its all cute and you weirdos want to sniff the baby, you want to support your friends and be for them as much as possible because you don’t need to have a child to understand how difficult it is raising a baby – AHEM like I’ve said I have one million friends who have kids and social media. Put the two together you never stop hearing about it.
Plus it’s kind of common sense, I can’t imagine the stress especially if your not getting much sleep – Enough of being sympathetic here.

What’s happening is that, even though my social life lacks. It really does, I don’t see friends or have friends to go out with drinking. It’s me, my boyfriend and my cat – The only friend I do see has a baby and I probably see this person once in a blue moon.
So when I say my social life sucks or I am alone I really am.

Right back on track  – So because I don’t have a kid, I don’t get invited out to parks or enjoy a day at the beach, In fact I’ve hardly seen any of the sunny weather the UK’s been getting because all of the people that are my friends go out with each other or with others because they have kids to have fucking play dates with.
This kills me… it really hurts.

I’m a human being, with needs and a heart. Me not having a child does not make me less worthy than someone who is a mother. Just because I don’t have a baby to talk about or have baby talk with also does not mean I am not interested. I also don’t understand the constant comparisons – Yes being a parent is tiring and you may of not had much time to your self but my life does not compare. Without a kid, I still have busy days and moments where I can’t even eat lunch.

It literally feels like I am pointless, I am not even the person that gets used as a last resort.

HEY WORLD! I don’t have kids and you know something, I don’t have that feeling yet to be a mother – I might not EVER have that constant yearning, I mean every now and again its nice to think about but these past months I’ve really learnt things about myself.
Who knows what my age will or if at all? My cat is enough for now and my god damn boyfriend and mother!

I or anyone without a child should not be branded or looked down at! We are people, we are still contributing to this world and as far as I am concerned I am making cute shit for babies – Even if it means using my cat as a model! WE are still worthy of your time, honestly I could really do with a social setting. I kind of hate that the real friends I’ve kind of made over the years are online, i’d love to do a meet up!

I love every single one of you that has  child, I have so much respect – Keep rocking it!

I love writing random posts like this but I would love to also to a weekly chit chat with me kind of thing so if you fancy joining in on a conversation with me on a post drop me a comment with a subject you’d like for me to talk about!
Literally, anything and ill have a moan or just a fun post – Okay I am ready to hit the sack read my book, which I cant wait to finish and I think i’ll have another review sooner than I thought!

Have an awesome weekend, and guess what?!?!?! I started to crochet today only a little bit because the weekends are now a kind of me thing and I always have shit to do like the pointless stuff, food shopping blah blah.

Please refrain from posting any hate comments or negativity. This is not a slanderous post and If you don’t like my ‘honest’ views just click off my shit.

P.S Am I sad that I bought a back pack for my two day trip next week LOL I can’t stop looking at it I want to pack it already haha – Also if you have a Primark store they do a waterproof mac that folds into a pocket for like £9.00 worth getting if its a  bit rainy or something light to wear if your out.  I need a new one because it’s green and I don’t like it anymore, plus because it’s from cheap ass Primark where slaves make the clothes the button on the pockets broke.

RIGHT – Going now bye.

Catch up and book review – Elly Griffiths, The Chalk Pit. 

What’s up everyone! I’m slowly back so I thought I’d do a wee catch up and a quick review on a book I’ve just finished. Actually I finished it at 4am last night, I would of done so sooner but I’ve been so distracted the past few. 

Right, so as of now every two weeks I’m going to do book reviews and by the end of August I’ll do an optional thing of book club. I aren’t starting this now because I’m going away to Liverpool for a few days next week and then I have some other things to be getting on with. 

I’m okay. I haven’t crocheted at all I keep getting anxiety when I think about it and I think I really did need this break of not doing any of it because I have over worked my brain and it’s come to a point where I just have no desire for it. I have no desire for my calligraphy, bullet journal nothing. Depression is a part of it and other things in my life right now but I really am feeling the urge to crochet over the weekend. 

So let’s get into the book review!! 

The Chalk Pit by elly Griffiths 

Okay I should say something about the author but I’m actually going to do a full post on it as I have ordered the first two books in this series as this is not the first. 

In the ninth Ruth Galloway mystery, Ruth and Nelson investigate a string of murders and disappearances deep within the abandoned tunnels hidden far beneath the streets of Norwich.

Norwich is riddled with old chalk-mining tunnels, but no one’s sure exactly how many. When Ruth is called in to investigate a set of human remains found in one of them, she notices the bones are almost translucent, a sign they were boiled soon after death. Once more, she finds herself at the helm of a murder investigation.
 
Meanwhile, DCI Nelson is hunting for a missing homeless woman, Barbara, who he hears has gone “underground.” Could she have disappeared into the labyrinth? And if so, is she connected to the body Ruth found? As Ruth, Nelson, and the rest of their team investigate the tunnels, they hear rumors of secret societies, cannibalism, and ritual killings. When a dead body is found with a map that appears to be of The Underground, they realize their quest to find the killer has only just begun—and that there may be more bodies underfoot.  (source, 
https://books.google.co.uk/books/about/The_Chalk_Pit.html?id=9cWlDAAAQBAJ&redir_esc=y&hl=en

Rating for me out of 10 is 7.5

Which is high for me LOL. 

OKAY, I love this book. And if you love a female character that’s clever and easily liked then this is for you. I love thrillers and even more so when it’s in England, because us British folk are odd.

It didn’t kick off straight away but each chapter had something to do with the main story line and as you read on it gets more and more in depth and interesting. By the time your past half way, you want to keep reading til the end. 

The character Ruth which I’m assuming is the main one (I’ve not read the other books) comes across quite normal you almost feel like you know her. Every character as a good personality and at the back of the book after the epilogue has a page for the characters. 

I was left VERY interested to read the past books and yearning for the next. The twist is quite good but I did feel as though it was sort of rushed towards the end. I think this is due to the slow start. THE SLOW START IS NOT A NEGATIVE FOR Me, it’s not boring its just very informative. 

What I liked was I didn’t sit and think fuck I need to read all the others to make sense of everyone in the book and what they talk about. I did not feel confused, I felt like I’d already read them all because she included small bursts of back story. 

I have OCD though with things that have a collection or series so I have ordered the first two and really excited to see it from the beginning as (spoiler) Ruth has a child In this book and yeah etc lol. 

It wasnt a crazy intense serial killer type thriller like some authors I’ve read aka Jo Nesbo. Even though the story sounds a little grim it wasn’t as evil or sinister as it makes out so I do think that they’ve slightly exaggerated. 

Pros: Easy read, smooth story, interesting character, book doesn’t leave you confused about the past books. 

Cons: wasn’t sinister enough for me, it mentions cannibalism and you don’t ever find out more etc I felt somewhat mislead in what I was expecting. It was slightly rushed towards the end especially when a love scene happened kind of rapidly and seemed somewhat pointless. Though I can’t fault much about it as it’s my first time reading this series. 

So basically it’s worth a read, I felt right at home reading it if that makes sense! 

How doesn’t like missing people murder and bones!! 
I probably won’t have time to post again but I’m hoping to post before my trip. I hope every one is doing okay 🙂

Catch up – blog changes & more 

I think have a book addiction but I’m also a hoarder. I’ve come to terms with this. 

So I’m being distant, I can’t help it. I hate social media and right now and even crochet, including the ‘look at me’ posts all the fucking time. 

but I’m pushing through because I have a craft fayre in October and a Christmas one in December so I am very busy. 

I have lots of blogs to catch up on and I’ll get to your posts at the weekend. 

This week and most of last week was none stop and will be til Saturday so I can relax and catch up on everything. 

ANYWAYS. Before I go I want to announce something. 

I’m going to be getting rid of my website and using the Facebook shop function, OK I haven’t worded it the way I should. The website is technically staying but the store will be linked in Facebook does that make sense? I think this will be a better marketing strategy for me as MOST if not all my orders come straight from the Facebook world. I know how I can pursue customers and I am more Facebook savvy. I think this will help my website more by linking it into one. 

I’ve also got two blankets available on my Etsy shop. It’s not a permanent thing as a personal preference I don’t like Etsy but way to go to everyone that has success with it. 

OKAY ANOTHER ANNOUNCEMENT 

Im really really really really putting my mind into writing. So watch this space! I also have some short stories saved as part of a new blog schedule I am planning. 

Which brings me to my schedule! 

From the beginning of August I’ll be posting 3 times a week. I want to try and do specific days but I know that won’t happen so as long as it’s 3x I’m okay. 

One day it will be crochet, another day it’s going to be random anything from crafts to a rant. Third post will be story/writing related. 

I’ve yet to do my bullet journal video and making t shirt yarn. Life does happen! 

Now here’s the fun part woop woop. Every two weeks It will be 4 posts because I’m going to do book reviews!!!!!!!! Heck I might even start a book club every month?!?!!!?!?!?!?!?!!! 
So that’s it for now! I pinky promise to catch up on blogs. I have liked some but yet to comment. Peace out. 

June wrap up & July goals

 

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Firstly, DAMN. How quick are the months passing? I can’t believe we are in July and not even thinner than last year. FML.

Okay, so as part of my new Blog schedule which i have put into my bullet journal WHICH i have a scheduled post for UK time is around 8:00PM because i wanted to do this post today and i normally don’t post twice a day BUT July kind of started on a weekend and i’ve been making the weekends are ME time.

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So July has been kind of hectic, i started off pretty smoothly with my projects. I started a shawl, a wave blanket a giraffe which are all kind of half done i just haven’t posted any more updates on them – Because orders for baby items have been making me crazy.
Whilst I am still adding changes to my website, I’ve been using my FB page more to use for custom orders. I know your thinking wtf is the point in having a website. WELL its my baby, it’s still growing and i had a brain fart to create a section of my store dedicated for babies and toddlers. So whilst juggling that and making items, well planning what to make seems to take over more than the actually making. I thought well, my FB page is my shop window and i can’t turn down a customer if i technically don’t have any of the baby items available online yet… right? SO i’ve been busting ass and as i write this i have a order that needs to go out today etc.

Anyways so here is literally June in a nutshell. I started a shit ton of projects at per and the ones that i kind of should of finished in June will be made priority for the first weeks of July, some of them i am actually going to save for December at the Christmas fayre. I made two more unicorns for someone!!! Started a bullet journal, played more games on the PS4, tried my hand at Calligraphy, NOT attempted to make t shirt yarn – I will, and a whole lot more!!! See some of the pictures below.

 

So what’s in store for July? Here are my goals

  • Stick to the blog schedule, i don’t think it matters if i stick the 3 times a week mark but it’s more about the content ideas i have i want to stick to.
  • Finish & Set up baby section on the website! I can’t wait for this as i think this will be such a huge hit .
  • Continue to eat healthily, last few days i let myself go but we all deserve treats.
  • Exercise, get my ass up and move!!! That includes going out for walks and getting some fresh air
  • Track your mood, this is part of the bullet journal but i want to track my book for depression purposes so i can see what and when i get low
  • Writing tracker, i set a goal to write 500 words a day. This excludes my personal journal and some blog posts. I want it to be strictly 500 words to do with writing stories. Now i can’t say it will be 7 days a week but i want to at least do this 4 times a week if i can’t stick to the 7.
  • Continue my calligraphy journey, once a week. Even if it’s just half an hour that allows me to sit and take a break to try something new. I really got pissed off with doing it but i am kind of excited to see where my progress takes me!
  • Read more, i have a reading tracker and part of my new blog ideas is that i want to read 5 books a month & at the end of the month i want to do a review on the books which ones i liked and didn’t etc. I think this will be fun, i might even started a monthly book club?
  • Stick to my crochet schedule. Ok so i am going to mention the word ‘depression’ again. Not to milk it at all but the reason why i have all these schedules and trackers in my bullet journal is to not only help me get more organised but to give me something to get out of bed and do even when i  feel like the world is about to eat me up! PLUS it’s hella fun 😀 😀
  • Read more blogs. I am going to set a side half an hour a day or when i’m just taking a break to catch up on blogs. I love a lot of blogs on here so i don’t want to miss anyone’s adventures.
  • Game more! Gaming is my escape i fucking live for it and something about the past 6 months or so i haven’t picked up the controller for gaming purposes. I spent the past two weekends playing games and it felt so good. Eyes hurt after but damn so worth it.
  • Go to the doctors, ok i have this weird rash i think it might be dry skin from like skin issues in the past i’ve been putting it off but i need to go.
  • Print more stickers and stuff for planner – This is purely for fun and therapeutic purposes.

Stop listing goals for the sake of it…..

That’s a shit load of goals BUT it’s all fun! They are all doable and none are impossible. It’s mainly to do stuff which can easily be carried over to August but i do have some that NEED to be done in July.
Like i need to be a little bit thinner this month to make up for the 4 years i’ve been meaning to diet.
That’s a wrap folks, check back later when my bullet journal video will be up on hurrrrrrrrrrrr I am kind of cringing at the sound of my voice. I live kind of up north but not northern I am in the middle so its a mixture of all the surrounding nasty ass accents and it created my nasty ass accent.

 

Peace out, happy July.