writing

Cold

My hands are cold,
My hands are tied,
Your subtle whisper,
I heard you lie,
My clothes, my shoes,
Are no more,
As my body hits the floor,
My hands are cold,
My hands are tied,
Here i lay,
As i die.

 

 

Rebecca Pursell

Oh this was scheduled because I’m a wizard. 

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Story Time · writing

Disconnected – Short story

“How much food do we have til they open the store again?”

“A couple of meals i say”

It was enough, it’s not like the store wasn’t going to open again. But for some reason people thought the need to ration, even supermarkets got in on it too. Once a week the it would open for a set amount of time, then close. We were able to get the most needed items, but they still had to limit how much because everyone needed to eat and drink.

The world had lost it’s mind since the internet went down, it was as though people had forgotten how life was lived without access to the online world. Four weeks had passed, nobody understand why or when it would be back – If was to ever come back.
I didn’t care, i actually liked it. The air was hectic but i also felt a sense of peace. People weren’t glued to laptops or phones unless they needed to make a call.
Children were out on the street playing, or at home with toys. The news reported that toy sales had risen because children were unable to play most mobile or tablet games without a connection, and mobile data was unavailable. Footballs and sporting goods were another popular thing, people were going out and just throwing a ball around.
Crime hadn’t changed, which we all though would. Hackers are clearly pissed off, but banks and expensive stores have had to adjust the alarms systems. Most are a live alarms, where the security feed is 24/7 linked with an online server. It had all been disconnected but nobody gave it a thought to go and rob the local banks. – How odd?

Is this something that’s going to make the world come together or eventually will people crack and crime will rise, i just don’t know. I aren’t seeking for answers, i am accepting this as it comes across. Whilst most spend all day and night trying to do something about it, i am sleeping without disturbance.

 

“Have you seen the fucking news, look quick…. The worlds been cut off from electric. What in the fuck are we going to do now?”

 

Diary · Story Time · Uncategorized

Let’s have fun – Top 10 favourite movies

 

OK so i haven’t been able to stick to my usual routine of blogging haha, next week i’ll do another beauty review but for the mean time, here is my top ten favourite movies EVER!
Number 1 ranking the best.

10. The Lost Boys

OH MY GOD this film, i love it i loveeeeeeeeeeeeee it. LIKE i know you know i love the 70’s BUT THE 80’s how god damn sexy were they! Such a shame about Corey Haim but these make vampirism sexy lol!!!

9. The Breakfast club

If you don’t like this film or you have never watched this film – Girl bye.

8. The Addams Family

Okay, the films are little bit silly but they are random, weird, and everything i am. This film made up pretty much my child hood lol! I always wanted to be in that family. You gotta have some quirkiness in your film selection right?

7. Edward Scissorhands

My mum would go round my nans (my dads mum) on a weekend, and no doubt id end up on the sofa with a blanket watching a video. THIS one, i would pick this one every time. I was obsessed. He scared the shit out of me as a kid but i was loved him, i felt sorry for him. Even to this day, now understanding the film and the deeper meaning it touches me every time!

6. Up!

If this doesn’t make you laugh or cry then are you even human? This made it into the list because its brilliant. I guess some of the story is a little mature, the losing the baby, death etc but why do animated films always have to be so KID friendly. Shit, i was watching the Exorcist in bed as a kid. Ok so i taped it one night when i saw it was on TV my mum didn’t know, but still. Of course i have a bunch of favourite animated films, but for me this got me forgetting the rest. I mean, this film knocked off Snow white.

5. My Best Friends Wedding

I watched this as a kid as well LOL  my mum got me into so many films, i think i was around 8 or 9 when i saw this film. Anyways, this list sucks because all these films deserve to me number one. My Besties wedding, i can’t fault it. It cheers me up and the scene where they sing Aretha Franklin is iconic.
Julia roberts, you do it ever time, you nail every damn role!

4. Titanic

I’ve watched this film around 100 times, no honestly i that’s how much i love it. It makes me CRY every single time, some people think this film is hella cheesy and i know it’s not 100% to the tragedy, the black an white film is more accurate but it still is super hard to watch knowing all those people died. Oh shit, pass me the tissues.

3.Calamity Jane


Doris Day was one of the first old school actresses my mum introduces me too, in fact this was the first film i saw with Doris day. From that moment on, i loved her so much as an actress. She is beautiful and has such a perfect representation of what a Hollywood star should be. I still think she is the most beautiful woman and as a kid i always wanted to be pretty like her. This was a hard one to list because i really am a huge fan and i’ve seen every film – I might have to do a top ten doris day to give her position in list justice!!
2. When Harry Met Sally

This is the perfect definition of a love story, seriously. Two best friends falling in love, like legit not stupidly like some films.
It touched me because my boyfriend and i were besties, and we are so alike yet so different and clash but he is my soul mate. I saw this film way before him though but it just makes my heart happy because it feels SO REAL!!!!!!!!! I Love meg ryan she’s another favourite actress.
How can we forget the famous orgasm scene!!!

1 . The Lord Of The Rings: The Two Towers

This wasn’t a difficult spot, honestly i am a massive fan. So much that in highschool i would wear the one ring around my neck, obviously not real. Probably why i got bullied.
The Two towers specifically is because of the battle of Helms Deep, it sends shivers down my spine when i think of it and when i watch it i still feel like it’s the first time i’ve ever watched it. Each film deserves a spot in it’s own right as all three a brilliant, but this one oh my god this one. Nothing will ever replace my love for these films, the books even more.
I want more Middle Earth movies, i really think in time some of Tolkiens work could be turned into movies. His other books does have the stuff before all of this but they aren’t an easy read but i guess sometimes some things are best left untouched.

FUN FACT, when LOTR the fellowship first came out on VHS, i would watch it every night in bed, no seriously. Even if i fell asleep, after a long day of school i would rewind that bad boy and start again. 

 

I’ve actually enjoyed making this list, and now i have lots of lists buzzing around to make and i probably won’t do them LOLOL but i might write them in my bullet journal, gives me something to do on a rainy day right?
I think if i do a next list, it will be TV shows.

SO thanks for reading if you did, i’d love to hear your top ten films! Let me know if you enjoy any of mine in the list.

Follow me on Instagram for pictures of stuff.

 

Chow!

Diary · Uncategorized · writing

Leaves set free – poem 

The air so cool and leaves set free,

Swooshing to a place id like to see, 

With animals hiding to keep themselves warm, 

Birds are fleeing away fast like a bee swarm,

The fox and owl find food to eat, 

And the red breast Robin finally lands his feet, 

The air so cool and the leaves set free, 

Each is an animal I’d love to be. 

Rebecca Pursell 

Story Time · writing

Underground – short story

I don’t remember the last time i touched air, or sniffed the fumes of petrol on a busy morning full of traffic. Though it’s not possible to touch air is it? But you do understand the feeling of it. I used to enjoy the breeze every time i would leave our shopping centre, it would instantly dry my sweaty palms and cool my wet neck.
I would sweat a lot whilst shopping, especially indoors. The rush of wanting to go from shop to shop trying to get through people, though why rush? It was as if sometimes the shop would disappear but i had this urgency to just get out of the way of people because my fucking God, some humans did not look where they were going. I often felt like i was the only one that would look around or left and right to see if my path was safe, or to spot the arseholes who weren’t actually looking. Sometimes if i bumped into the ignorant of the blind, they would look to me as if it was my fault.
I felt like an alien whilst people wandered and stared solely in a straight line, not giving a shit where they walked because they wanted to walk where ever they felt like it.
The satisfaction of entering a shop, but then to do it all again whilst in that shop. Avoiding people with prams or large baskets and trolleys. I always moved out of the way when someone wanted to get past or decided to shuffle next to me and look on the same shelf. That pissed me off, i had to wait until they were done so i could continue with that section. Selfish shoppers, and what’s with the parents that just allow children to wander. I am not apologizing if knock over your kid.  I don’t miss the stress of being amongst other humans whilst shopping. – In fact i am with them twenty four hours a day, and have been for the past fourteen years. We haven’t seen an ounce of daylight and i haven’t had a strong lung in take of air for a long time, i’ve forgotten what most things look like or taste like.
Our air though is filtered through and reaches us underground, Lord knows what would happen if something was to go wrong. The ‘Army’ as we call them i suppose are trained enough to take on that kind of situation if it was to happen, though too many have already been eaten and killed. The overly brave, who think whatever is up on the surface is weak and no match for the mighty army. How wrong were they? Once a month, a team does venture out for a whole week to seek food and supplies, even try and find more traces of humans. Not many return, and each time we are thankful for the loss of life so we can continue living.
My cabin isn’t too bad, i made some fake plants out of clay the other day with another bunch of women. Most of them are married and the men go off doing labour work, us females don’t have much to do except look after the children and educate, cook, nurse or like me wander and observe.
Never in my life would i imagine that whats left of some of the population is here living underground. I can’t speak for the rest of the United Kingdom or the cities outside of mine, in fact the rest of the world.
We haven’t had human contact outside for the ten years, the four years this all happened was fine. I guess you could say hopeful? I mean it’s a long time isn’t to be underground and not speak to humans above.  – I can’t really remember what made us all live underground. All i know is that if we go up, we die.
I think i was thirteen years old when this happened, i am now twenty seven. I don’t know what year is it, or date. We have our own calender’s and i gathered all the months and dates are incorrect but it helps us to live everyday, so we can celebrate birthdays or even Christmas.

It’s my birthday soon, i want to leave the underground and live in the real world. I am going to make my escape the day after my birthday. I need to know the truth, i need to see daylight.

 

Story Time · writing

Charlie – Short story

 

I sat longer than usual on the bench, i knew my train was about to arrive but i just didn’t quite feel like catching it. I knew that waiting wouldn’t make him sit next to me but i wanted to sit here for a while longer hoping that he did. I wanted to feel hopeful, i needed atleast that. I am not sure if i fell in love with him, though i did care deeply and really did see him as a best friend.
But how can you love or be friends with someone you bump into everyday, waiting to catch the train home from work. How can you feel something by sitting for two hours a day talking with them and building a connection?
The last week i’ve say here and he hasn’t shown up, i knew this day would come. He’s moved on with his life and quite right. We never exchanged numbers or even added eachother on social media, which i can’t seem to fatham. Why did we not ever do that? Is that not what people do now, exchange user names and connect through a world of meme’s and cat videos.
I think maybe it would of all gone a different way, infact hundreds of ways. We could of spoken more, met up. Even exchange messages to confirm that we would both be at the station waiting for our seperate trains. But then i do realise if we had that, i don’t think it wouls be as magical.
For two hours a day, 5 days week after a long day at work i would sit and talk with a stranger. His name was Charlie, and for 6 months we built this friendship. At first it was me plonking my arse down on a bench after a really horrible day at work. I was at my all time lowest in life. I had a rubbish job, no boyfriend and not many friends. I pretty much spent my life either at work or in my home cuddling my cat. If i did go out, it was because i needed to get food and things to live or the odd friend would randomly want to meet for lunch. Which i can say was not that often, i had no social circle nor remember the last time i went out with friends for a girls day or even night drinking cocktails.
My life was shit and that day i wanted to run onto the train tracks and just end it all. But meeting Charlie, gave me hope and the fact i couldn’t leave my poor kitty alone.
After that day bumping into him became this weird coincidence and before we knew it, us sitting on the same bench waiting for our train became a regular thing. We would spend a few hours talking, purposely missing our travel home.
This handsome guy with dark hair and a quirky sense of dress style, made me feel like i existed in this world once again. He made me laugh, talked me out of my darkest thoughts and most of all he listened.
Six months is a long time isn’t it? Especially when we never exchanged numbers, the more i think about it the more i wonder if he really did exist.
If i had his number, maybe i would know why for some strange reason, Charlie left without trace…

Craft · Crochet

Crochet hook review – Sunday chit chat

I wanted to blog something crochet related as I haven’t really gone into much detail lately about my current projects, I currently have 6 projects that are all for customers and a few on the side for me plus one hundred for my stall – I am actually meeting up with my mum in the week to make a huge list of things I want to sell and she’s going to help me make some things to take the load off!

 

Anyways, so I think when it comes to our craft and hobbies its important to have good supplies, ones that work for us and really make our work not only enjoyable but smooth sailing. I think that’s really important with crochet and knitting, though I aren’t a pro in either I don’t know how to knit so I can’t really give much of an input on that part. I will say though I have had a few experiences with hooks and I found it really important once I got better at crocheting to be comfortable and happy whilst making things.
Also, I suffer bad with my wrists sometimes probably due to all the warehouse jobs I have worked in so my hands etc become tired easily and I feel the strain more – Which is why I wanted to go through my hooks and talk about what works for me and doesn’t and how I rate each one.

This is no way shape or form meant to force to buy the hooks I love, as everyone is different and has a preference when it comes to hooks and things but I have a speciality hook with I think will interest some folk. So shall we begin?

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Aluminium hooks are probably the first set of hooks anyone will buy as a beginner. Why? Because they are cheap and a great way to learn how to crochet. I mean you must be crazy if you fork out lots of money when first learning something new!
These are a brand called Fusion, set of 12 and I paid £4.99 for them! I believe the name fusion is just private labelled as you can get these metal hooks from pretty much anywhere online for super cheap. Ebay have hundreds!
Okay, so whats good about these is that they are cheap, and they really do help with learning the basics of crocheting. It gives you great insight on how to get comfortable holding a hook, as we all have our own way. But for long term use, for me personally they don’t work. ESPECIALLY the smaller sizes, I mean my most used size hooks are 2, 2.5, 3.5, 4, 6 and when I am making toys I used 2, 2.5 a lot. These were so not comfortable to use but when I started out I really didn’t get that? I just assumed it comes with the craft, especially when it comes to delicate yarns and cottons these things would snag and make all sorts of mess to my fibers.
However I wont throw them away because the larger hooks are ‘okay’ to work with. I just can’t crochet with them for long, especially since a year has passed and the skill has improved massively. Great for beginners, not so much good if you do suffer with joint inssues in the wrists, or arthritis because they are slippy and uncomfortable to hold, especially after a long period of time.

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When I started to get better a crocheting and also began to experience pain in my wrists, people would tell me about hooks with rubber handles or the more elite and expensive ones, Clover etc. Because my budget wasn’t quite there I noticed that the brand Fusion who made those really uncomfortable metal hooks also did some rubber handle style ones. They didn’t even break the bank, seriously! I got a set of 9 for £7.99 WOW right!?
To this day, they are the best books I have ever used and of course a little stronger. I mean my 2mm hook on the old set fucking bent when I used it! These were amazing and I noticed straight away an improvement in my crocheting, my hand pain was less and less and I was able to crochet faster, neater and for longer periods of time. I was super happy!
These again are perfect for those that are starting out and don’t want to break the bank AND PRO’S – Honestly, I will say recently I got a clover hook and sometimes I still switch back to this because of how comfortable I am when I crochet. Basically, in my pot of hooks if I need a hook this is the one I reach for without thinking! I will never stop using these hooks and I will never forget them because they helped my improve so much.
So if you are looking for hooks that save you money and  have an ergonomic handle this will be your life saver!

 

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This is just a quick tough on bigger crochet hooks and the one small one I have.  I mean its an absolute rare occasion that I use such big hooks! I don’t think I’ve ever made anything chunky or bleugh because when I have, regardless like aka t shirt yarn my wrist hurts and I find it so hard to work with hugely bulky yarn. May because I aren’t used to it like some crocheter and knitters so I probably need to spend more time with fat yarn. So I got some hooks, these are not a set and got each one alone. I was using these plastic shitty pony ones that I did not like and I will touch on them at some point in this post.
These Knit pro hooks cost around £2.90 each, that’s just an estimate. I actually got them from Ebay, and if your precise and don’t rush a buying on Ebay you will find legitimate sellers as I know a lot of fake hooks/brands get sold but I do have a few sellers I buy from and they are really good. Especially for price. As I don’t use these hooks that often, I just wanted to say findind a hook with a rubber hand and metal head will probably work better for anyone like me who finds it difficult or has wrist pain. Its a lot more comfortable to hold and the yarn will just slide easily on these hooks. AVOID the shitty ass cheap pony ones, they are vile…DSC_0047

Oh look shitty ass plastic ones. Okay, they don’t function well with yarn and I can’t seem to get a good grip on these at all. They hurt my hand it in all kinds of ways from wrist pain, to friction on my palm because I have to hold them in a weird way to feel comfortable. They make me feel like I have to work ten times harder when crocheting rather than just effortlessly moving that hook, I mean you guys might have good experiences with these but I don’t. The only good thing about them is they are cheap, so yeah.

 

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My babies! Clover hooks! YUP – Expensive. But I only bought the sizes I truly use the most because I want to feel comfortable as I am a lot better at crocheting. This past year my bones and joints just aren’t the same and I even had to wear a bandage for a week because my wrist was fucked up. I still have to wear it when I feel like I need support whilst crocheting.
So the top image is Clover soft touch, and these are a God send. I didn’t know what to expect when I had these, as I know everyone goes on about these and I’ve been wanting them for such a long time and the past few months I’ve been lucky to upgrade a little on my hooks. The first one I bought was a 4mm I have two of those because I thought id lost the other LOL – I got it and fuck, it was the lightest thing I’ve ever held. Which what makes the hooks so great. They are so light in your hands that you don’t even realise you are crocheting, so I could crochet even faster and longer without hurting or straining. I wasn’t sure if was going to like them because of the handle its flat and not bulky and round like some other hooks, so I had to adjust the way I held my hook and it took me a day to get used to it. But now I love them, the hook itself is so well made you can tell by the shape and I have not experiences any yarn catching or snagging especially the smaller hook when I used cotton for toys. It’s so smooth I can’t explain it. If you want to not ache as much with crocheting then these are the next upgrade, they are pricey over all. I mean £3.69 approx  for one hook hence why I got them over time, and I aren’t too bothered about getting every single size as I have other hooks etc I am ok working with.
Then the go onto the picture below – These are Clover Amour and work out around £5.99 for one hook, so even more pricier. I have a 6.5mm in this as I started a blanket with chunky yarn and I didn’t really have a great hook other than my fusion rubber handles and I was experiencing snagging and just bleugh. FUCK £5.99 is worth every penny. The handle looks the same doesn’t it as some others? But its not, the rubber is softer than talc on my ass. The hook itself is plastic but I know they have Amour ones made from Aluminum – For plastic it doesn’t look like it, so it must be special because the hook is so smooth and well crafted. The handle and everything I could just tell the difference as I worked with my chunky yarn. I enjoyed crocheting with it, I just kept going and going because I had no issue.
These hooks are worth the buck in my opinion, you guys might not like them but that’s okay. I aren’t saying buy buy buy – Add them to a wish list for your birthday or Christmas, and if you get the chance to treat yourself once in while invest in one at a time. Don’t get a whole set because you need to see if these hooks will work for you!
Now I am saving the best til last 🙂

 

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OKAY! This is a 6mm Prym ERGONOMIC crochet hook. I paid £4.29 so yes again price!
If you want to invest when your ready and want a really decent ergonomic hook then this is it. BUT I want to give you the bad news – These start from 6mm to 15mm, which pissed me off though I totally get why. The bigger the yarn the bigger the hook, and it can become quite tiresome and hardwork as I mentioned with another hook, so you have more strain on your wrists and this isn’t always a nice thing if you have arthritis.
We want to craft and be comfortable, not do it for half an hour and be like damn I need a cocktail to forget the pain.
I am not lying when I say DO Get these hooks, DO try them. If they made these hooks in smaller sizes, I would switch out my whole collection for these. SERIOUSLY, that’s how good they are.
I mean, Prym hook me up if you do smaller sizes!
The only thing I had to get used to is the handle is longer, which is actually a good thing this makes it nice and easy for you to hold the hook nice and light without gripping it for your life. Which means it’s comfortable.
The metal hooks, and the nasty ass plastic things I had to hold really tight because I could not get a good trip or feel comfortable.
These glide and your wrist moves smoothly when your tackling those stitches! Add this to your wishlist.

 

Hooks I aren’t fond of.

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So I won’t fully say piss off to crochet hooks with fancy handles, or bamboo hooks as well the polymer clay hook was free with a magazine. It snagged my yarn, it wasn’t made very well on the hook you can feel something rough and the handle is hard and uncomfortable. I do however like the roundness of the handle, it made it easy to manoeuvre in my fingers.
As for the bamboo hooks, they cost like £1.99 and I think the one with the interchangeable end cost around £2.99 or £3.99 – They suck! They feel so light and I was so scared of snapping them, not only that the hook itself didn’t seem like the size it said. I compared them to another hook size, and it just seemed really small!
Not only that they caught onto my yarn and snagged, I struggled to finish a stich and couldn’t really get a good rhythm or flow with my crocheting. I got pissed off and threw them to one side.
HOWEVER – I am very open to trying more bamboo hooks, and more fancy hooks with cute polymer clay handles. These ones that I have are just an actually no go!

 

Thanks for reading!

So yeah! That’s my thoughts on my hooks, again these views are my own and I am in no way shape for form encouraging this to be your opinion. I think it’s important in crocheting and in any craft that you find the tools your most happy working with. It’s about experimenting and testing out, which is why I don’t and wont ever buy full sets of the expensive ones so that’s also important for you to remember! No pressure in upgrading, it took me a year to do so and if it wasn’t for my mum who has been helping me recently by treating me every now and again I probably will be still using those fucking metal things. They are really sharp at the bottom, so I need to add that if you have kids just watch them with those, they would make a good weapon.

 

I hope you are all having a good weekend!

 

Diary · Uncategorized · writing

I can fly – poem 

Let’s pretend that I can fly,

And see the world from way up high,

With my wings the things I see,

Is a world that pretends to be.

-Rebecca Pursell 

Crochet · Diary

Bye Bye August – Random chit chat

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Well, as far as crocheting is concerned i am working away at orders and don’t have many finished NEW and exciting WIPs – Except the hat. I have however managed to get back into my bullet journal and now my life is becoming before busier than usual i feel like i need to set routine for my crocheting, especially now i need things to get done.

I aren’t the greatest artist, but i actually took some time with what i’ve put into this month and started a new bullet journal book because i fucked up the last one. And by that i mean i got pissed off with how scruffy it was and threw it out. I have this OCD thing where if a notepad or in this case my bullet journal has too much scruff in it or doesn’t look nice inside i have to have brand new. Which i think related to my hoarding issues because i have ALOT of notebooks that all has the same stuff in it but it’s all been re-written because a few pages in the old one was bit messy.

I have around 6 weeks for my first stall and i have jack shit made, do you also want to know something else about me? Okay, so i have tried all my life to plan etc and i even am trying now but i just cannot plan ahead – I am a last minute person, i always will be. I can’t even plan what i am going to do at the weekend, even though i know i will be doing the same thing like relaxing and gaming but i want to go our Monkey forest but i can’t tell you if i will or what time.

When we wen to Liverpool, i got an open return ticket which means you can catch anytime to and from – But i had planned in my head the exact time i want to arrive so i got the train times and guess what? I got the next one because i was running late.
I think when it comes to the morning and just waking up, it takes me a long time to function. We are talking an hour before i start to move, i tend to relax with a cup of tea check emails, messages watch pointless conspiracy theory videos and then i will have a second cup of tea. I thought this would change since i quit smoking, because that would be in the routine but it hasn’t – So i am fucking lazy basically.
When it comes to over all planning and what time, or what time to meet people its a kind of ‘hey mum lets meet at noonish’ and remember the ISH part, because that then gives me my excuse for if i am running late. ‘Why you so late, you said noon?’ NO mate i said noonish.

And we have swayed way off track, so what were are learning right now is that i have some mental issues – I hoard, i can’t plan, I have weird OCD things.

If i can’t fascinate you with my life and babbling’s how will i ever get people to read my book when and if it surfaces – Again this is where the i can’t plan thing comes into play.
How the foook, am i going to keep track of my bullet journal LOL

 

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So the picture above is my habit trackers for September, Writing being the main one which Crochet should be bigger but the reason i made the writing one bigger is because of the space next to each date. – So the purpose of the habit tracker is to track each day something you do etc, so i will highlight on the day i do these things and with the writing one next to the day i am just going to jot down how many words i do.
I am aiming for the min of 1,000 because sometimes when i write not alot comes out and i don’t want to force too much and then sometimes lots and lots comes out. Hopefully with this i can gauge the average word count and what days i do write for next month and then i will hopefully set a writing routine.

 

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This is actually not a monthly collection/list but this is part of the collections before you start your actually diary/month – I am in the works to do a video, i really fucking promise i’ll do it. I just can’t PLAN when. Have you noticed when i’ve planned to do something and show you guys on my blog i don’t do it – TOLD YOU, planning problems.
I just thought i would create a two page spread of recipes i want to try, one side for me and my boyfriend and the second side solely for me as i am more open minded to trying to new things. OR i could use it for healthy recipes because i am getting more fatter. I need someone to throw salad at me.

I am a free bird, i do what i want when i want.

 

And that is about it, i felt like i need to blog because i was in a chatty mood! Hopefully next week i will post some pictures of what i am working on order wise. I just don’t want to right now because i like to get so far in an order before showing a preview as it keeps that kind of element of surprise! Plus two are blankets and are looooooooooooooooooong.

 

OH OH OH – British bake off has started, i really enjoyed it even though its been taken over by shitty Channel 4 – ADVERTS OMG i can’t cope, sooo i might have to watch it on catch up because at least with BBC one you didn’t have to watch people badly mime a fucking script for tooth paste.

Also started watching the TV series The Vikings, obsessed! Just finished season 1, i believe season 5 starts in a few months so i need to go out and get the rest.

 

OH OH, i haven’t done much in the way of practising my calligraphy or handwriting but it’s my birthday in October and made a list of a few things to get me so i can actually have some kind of guidance/exercise books which i saw on amazon.

 

Book reviews LOLOLOL ok i haven’t finished my current read, i got busy. And now it’s been a few weeks i cant be arsed with that story though it will bug me if i don’t finish it. 

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! I hope everyone is fine and dandy 😀

Book review · Story Time

Book review – NOD, by Adrian Barnes

Alright, well i am back from my few days trip. I actually got back Saturday but I’ve kind of been recovering and trying to get back to reality! Why is it so vile when you come home, like it just all becomes so boring. I am going to do a full post on my trip at the end of the week and share some pictures, i will work in my crochet dolls i have done as i will be a tad busy to do the three post shite.
OK, so finished reading the book NOD – Keep reading if you want my thoughts!

9781783298228

 

Dawn breaks over Vancouver and no one in the world has slept the night before, or almost no one. A few people, perhaps one in ten thousand, can still sleep, and they’ve all shared the same golden dream. After six days of absolute sleep deprivation, psychosis will set in. After four weeks, the body will die. In the interim, panic ensues and a bizarre new world arises in which those previously on the fringes of society take the lead. Paul, a writer, continues to sleep while his partner Tanya disintegrates before his eyes, and the new world swallows the old one whole.

Publisher: Titan Books Ltd

 

About the author – Okay, so i could only find bits about the author and i haven’t found ant social media links, which was sad because i know that he had cancer and would love to find out how he is doing and just what he’s up to in general – ALSO, if or when he will publish another book.

He was born in the UK and i believe he lives in Canada now? I have a link here with some information on him and an article which goes into a little more in depth about his cancer and how writing this book plays a huge part in that.

About Adrian
Adrian article

 

Overall book rating 8/10

I loved this book, it’s everything i could possibly want in a Dystopian novel, i love apocalypses and all things dark and gloomy. This is the kind of writer i aim to be some day and so reading a book like this, that hits all the good parts about a favourite genre or style of writing got me seriously hyped up and excited to write myself.

The way Adrian used insomnia to tell this apocalyptic story is just brilliant. People can’t sleep and turn into insane sleep deprived humans, who will die eventually.
The descriptions and some scenes in this book as well as actions have hidden meanings and are even damn right spot on when it comes to how you feel and act when you don’t get much sleep – What’s interesting is how the world changes the longer they live without sleep. How it turns them less human by the day, sort of monster like.

Each chapter represented a day in the life of the story, so chapter 3 would be day 3. The more you read, the more you wanted to know what happened and how or when they would all die, which sounds kind of grim but this book gives you such huge curiosity. For me, instead of watching or reading something world ending you usually wish the best out come and that everyone or at least some kind of happy ending exists, i wanted to see the death. – I really did want to know what happens in the end if you never sleep, because how many times have you secretly wished more hours in the day, or that you never be tired. After reading this i sure as shit want to sleep but i won’t lie…..

I struggle with insomnia so i totally got the hidden messages and in fact for the first few days of reading this i couldn’t sleep properly because it was on my mind. What a horribly fucking thing to happen. The world is ending by something that we need the most, which is more scary than having zombies come and eat me.

If you want to be scared but intrigued at the same time then this book is for you. It’s not so much scary in the sense of some kind of arsehole like Jason or Freddie coming to get you but something about apocalypses and the end of the world always sets me off and makes me feel kind of odd.
It will leave a mark and leave you shook, it left me thinking if this could happen and books, horrors or dystopia very rarely do that.

It’s a quick read, and could be even quicker if you are someone that flies through books like your change of knickers – What’s even more interesting is the authors thoughts when he had cancer, he said he started to feel similarities to the book. Which is why linked the article above because its quite interesting to read.

I think an 8/10 is fair, i just wish i knew ALOT more about the author because i have this weird urge to investigate and stay up to date with authors i enjoy, i really hope he pushes out some more books because i think he is a brilliant writer.

 

Book club starts in a few weeks, i am about to start a new book to review and as well as that sift through the perfect one for anyone that wishes to join in after.

Thanks for reading! I’ll be playing blog catch up tomorrow, the joys.